it's just that simple

Sungai Merbok

2011-02-18T06:18:00.000+01:00

Either i am outdated and nerdy person who stays at home all the time or many people in Sungai Petani don't even know the existence of this wonderful place. Situated far away from the hustle bustle in city, it offers serene and peaceful environment and get-away from the stress for some less polluted air, fishing activities, boat rides along the Sunagi Merbok(Merbok River) and also landscape photography.

I discovered this place while browsing through internet to look for places to take pictures in Sungai Petani. To get the direction, I 'google-mapped' this place and it wasn't difficult to find. It was surprisingly developed and I am pretty sure a lot of money has been invested on this eco-tourism project with many facilities like restaurant, museum, toilets and chalets built as part of the development.

For more pictures feel free to visit my flickr album by clicking here.

寻梦

2011-01-06T00:57:00.000+01:00

我用了两天的时间把《泡沫之夏》看完。我万万都没想到我会被这连续剧向地心引力一样深深地吸引着。

有时候我会问我自己到底电视剧里的那种爱到要生要死的爱情故事是否会发生在我们这现实生活里。看完结局后，我还像小孩子一样傻傻地打电话给好友问他同样的问题。他回答我说如果电视剧里的故事描写现实的爱情故事，那么故事就不会精彩，没有人会看。我明明知道答案是什么，但是我还是希望我会听到有人对我说，“只要你相信，或是当你遇到一个让你忘己自我的女孩，那时候的你就会像电视剧里的男主角一样，为了她不顾一切的夺取她对你的爱。”

现实的爱情又到底是怎样的呢？

吵吵闹闹的？

还是

安安静静的？

要求对方改变自己，做他不想环但是你喜欢的事情？

还是

包容彼此的缺点，学会接受和谅解对方？

把对方绑得紧紧的，让对方喘不过气?

还是

给予对方空间去做对方想要的事情？

。。。。。。

这些问题没完没了的。。讲句老实话，我所追求的爱情其实很简单，好好地在一起就好。早上起来，有人会为我准备早餐，然后我们去上班，我买些菜回来，准备晚餐给我俩吃，然后我们坐在一张很舒服的沙发上，看电视，阅读报纸，上网，聊天。

但是我觉得我所追求的爱情听起来是简单，但是这种爱情也只能在梦里才会实现，连电视剧也不会，因为太乏味，不够戏剧性。

好吧！是时候找周公，希望我那简单的爱情会在我今晚的梦里实现。

黑猫与牛奶

2011-01-05T22:29:00.000+01:00

很喜欢这首歌。。

小黑猫是一只流浪的猫

它没有喝过幸福的牛奶

刮风下雨的夜晚

小黑猫只能吃着垃圾堆里发臭的菜

小男孩就是一个小男孩

没有过去也没有未来

刮风下雨的夜晚

小男孩只能不知所措望着恐惧发呆

在一个樱花盛开晚风徐徐的夜晚

小黑猫遇上了小男孩

小男孩给了它一碗温温的牛奶

在一个樱花盛开晚风徐徐的夜晚

小黑猫遇上了小男孩

小男孩给了小黑猫温温的牛奶

从此他们懂了爱

小黑猫是一只流浪的猫

它没有喝过幸福的牛奶

刮风下雨的夜晚

小黑猫只能吃着垃圾堆里发臭的菜

小男孩就是一个小男孩

没有过去也没有未来

刮风下雨的夜晚

小男孩只能不知所措望着恐惧发呆

在一个樱花盛开晚风徐徐的夜晚

小黑猫遇上了小男孩

小男孩给了它一碗温温的牛奶

在一个樱花盛开晚风徐徐的夜晚

小黑猫遇上了小男孩

小男孩给了小黑猫温温的牛奶

从此他们懂了爱

Journey in Balkan Countries- Berat

2010-09-10T18:01:00.000+02:00

How often people who walk past you look at you as if you are some very important people in this world or celebrities? May be if you have attire malfunction or people make fun of you by sticking paper saying you are a turtle or wadsoever, they would probably staring at you. Well i had that experience when i was in Berat, Albania.

We were like near extinct spesies walking on the streets of Berat. After spending some time in Berat, we figured out why they stared at us. We were the only 2 asians in Berat. may be for some of them we were the first young asian in Berat. Well tourist who comes to Berat are most probably those hardcore travellers with backpacks. Most of them are Europeans or Americans. Asian travellers are rare. if there are, there is a big posibility that they are Japanese or Korean who are in their middle age and can afford trips like this.

Here in Berat, they have an event every night where the local people would gather on a particular street at a particular period of time. the event is called Giro or Jiro (i am not sure). it somehow reminded me of pasar malam in Malaysia but without stalls. when the time came, the street was crowded with people in proper nice attire. i guess this is an event for the people to get to know each other and for the guys to tackle gals. Well when you are in a country where the people don't speak any language that you know, you just have to keep guessing about the things going on around us. But we confirmed with local people here nad they were very friendly and kind to explain everything to us eventhough their English was not good.

Language is indeed a barrier here in Berat, but that doesn't mean you should not try understand the people here. They are surprisingly kind and friendly. At the beginning,i had difficulties understand their facial expressions and hand gestures. Tim, on the other hand, was really good at understanding them. But i managed to keep up after a while.

Have you ever tried sitting somewhere on the street waiting for other people to come to you to talk to you? Well if you are living in Germany, most probably that won't be happening and you might just end up sitting there all day long alone. Tim and I decided to try our luck for the way people have been looking at us so far. We sat on a busy street in Berat to see how the locals would react. Some said hi, some looked at while walking past us, some looked at us again even though they have walked past us. Some asked me to take pictures for them. Not very often they could see tourist with big camera. So i took a couple of pictures of them. At first they were very shy in front of camera, their shyness was shown by them covering thier faces but after some persuasions they posed and smiled to my camera. It was a whole new experience for me to take pictures of people instead of buildings during the trip.

if you travel in small group(max 2 person), you would have different experience which on no account you would have if you travel in big group. People aren't so affraid of you if you are in small group. Therefore they would approach you and talk to you. Trip like this is the trip that gives you the chance to blend yourself into the local culture and learn more about the people. That made a big difference to my trip. Travelling is not just about being at a place and taking some photos to prove that sometime in the past i was there.

Another thing i like about Albania is the food here. Well the food here was not really special, but the food here was really cheap. With 5 euro you can fill your stomach to the fullest with 3 course meal with lamb or steak as main course and beer.

Work

2010-09-08T18:50:00.000+02:00

Today is 6th September. Summer holiday ends in 3 weeks. I have been working at Asia Wok as waiter for one month. I hope this week will be my last week working there. Working life of a waiter in Asia Wok is never fun. Mundane is the word to describe my job. if i were to count the frequency of saying "Guten Apetite" and "Schonen Tag noch", i think it would be at least 30 times. At the beginning, i have always said them with passion and a very sincere smile. At time goes, the passion is slowly vanishing. What is left is no more a sincere but a forced smile to the customer.

Sometimes I would wonder how the people who have to work like this for their whole life could bear with the mundane working routine such as this. Perhaps my shoulders are still free from any burden that involves people whom I care about. Every evening after working, they go back home and awaiting them at home are children and wife or old aged parents who gives them reason to continue working despite of the mundane routine and spare them from misery. For a single man who has nothing but himself here in Germany, what keep me moving forward? I would say the word which starts with M, not Michelle, not Megan, not May, not Mary. It makes my life more interesting and I could afford the stuffs on my wish list.

When you make money as your purpose in life, you are in the same group of people who worship money. I would say it is pathetic actually. And that makes me a pathetic person. I know it is wrong to worship money or in my case to make money as one of my purposes of life. I dare anybody to say whatever they do now has nothing to do with money. If you are a student, you need money to pay semester fee. If you are a father, you need money to feed your children. If you are a politician, the reason of being one is to get money, either legally or illegally. If you are church leader, you need financial support to grow your church. This is how the present world runs. It revolves around the M word.

MIA

2010-08-31T23:50:00.000+02:00

been working on my Flickr account recently. Eversince i came back from the trip, i have been working at asian restaurant and editting 1000++ pictures that i had taken during the Balkan trip. and up until now i could say i finished editting 60% of the pictures. Well i have been uploading some of my pictures on Flickr. I recently bought a pro Flickr account so that i have unlimited photo uploads.

Last weekend i worked as a photographer at a party and i met a guy who is working at Bosch. He told me something which really struck me, like i was shot at point blank range. He told be hobby is hobby and instead of spending too much time on doing the stuffs that i like, i should concentrate more on my future, how to get good result, get a good job and so on. I have been thinking about what he told me intensively. what he said might be true but the question should be like this, how my life would be without doing something that i like to keep me going and stay on the track?

If you are interested to have a look at my pictures, visit my Flickr Photostream. (Click here) because i have too many pictures and i doubt that i will post all in my blog. but of course i will write something about my trip. I bought a notebook and wrote down my experience in it throughout the journey. i am looking forward to tell readers of my blog about my trip.

夜深感言

2010-08-20T02:09:00.000+02:00

曾经有人跟我说，一个人不可能在短时间改变。
我照一照镜子，我发现我变了很多。
在外国生活了一年半，
我很努力的去适应新环境，融入这新社会，
不停地在新生活圈子里寻找我可以站稳的岗位。
岁月不待人，时间一分一秒地流去，
半年过去了，很快地一年过去了，
我还是跟以前一样，毫无改变。
我觉得生活毫无乐趣，反而觉得有点痛苦。
一年半过去了，我开始剥开过去，真正地去参与这里的新生活。
我现在的生活，开始有了点起色。
我开始工作，游玩和做一些让我的生活变得跟充实的事情。
而不是每天呆在电脑前。
我的新生活终于开始了。

寻找自己的过程中，
我尝试以爱情充实自己，把感情和心灵寄托在另一个人的身上。
但是我还是觉得生活有点空虚。
因此我伤害了两个女人，我对不起她们。
我承认我自私，我承认我当初做了很多错误，辜负了她们对我所付出的一切。
我清楚地知道我所做的一切不能就以一句对不起就可以弥补我的过错。
对不起这三个字微不足道。
但是除了说声对不起，我又可以做什么呢？
很少人会明白我的感受，体会过我的生活的人才会明白。
你可能觉得我觉得我自己的想法永远是对的，
换句话说我觉得我永远都是宇宙的中心点。
每个人都不是应该做我们觉得对的事情吗？
这样我们才会犯下错误，
做错事才会让人成长，不是吗？

屋顶

2010-07-14T22:35:00.000+02:00

有人说外国的月亮特别圆，
我不赞成。

但是如果有人说外国的黄昏特别美，
我会举起双手与双脚赞成。

A conversation on risk.. it inspires

2010-07-10T18:28:00.000+02:00

I found these videos when i was reading Chase Jarvis's blog. Listen to wad they have to say and it's really inspiring. It's about how to take risk and deal with it in life and how people grow up from it.. it has inspired me and i hope they inspire you too. Life is not as bad as you think. like my best friend said to me, if you were given a lemon, just make lemonade out of it... here comes a stupid question that i asked her back.. what if you were given a small rock, immediately she answered:" eat the rock and it will come out together with shit.. eh.. not funny? yeah.. i think its not a joke. it's just a random answer given by an annoyed friend to a very stupid question asked by a very annoying person, well which is me. wad would you answer, if i ask you that. you were given a rock, worthless piece of rock, something which is so solid, that you can't change or make anything out of it?

45 Degree Celcius Fever

2010-06-23T22:40:00.000+02:00

The roads were empty. Normally at this hour the streets would be filled with cars. Most of the German were watching football match between Germany and Ghana live from South Africa. Everytime whenever the German football team plays, the whole Germany stops. Shops, streets, roads would be very empty. Most of the Germans would probably be sitting on couch, drinking beer and watching the German football team play. I really respect them for being so patriotic, supportive towards their national football team and so united.

Ghana was beaten by Germany 1-0, beautifully scored by young talented footballer Mesut Özil. This is how the Germans celebrate their victory, out on the streets and roads honking, shouting and cheering with their national flag held high. The honking could last 1-2 hours. no kidding. Right now while i am writing this, the match ended one hour ago, and since then the honking never stops and still goes on.

Summer Adventure

2010-06-19T21:20:00.000+02:00

I have decided not to go back Malaysia this summer and travel instead. So very soon after the exam i will embark on a 15-day-journey starting from Athen and all the way to Sofia in Bulgaria. as you can see from the map above. To finance my trip, i am working part time in a vietnamese restaurant during summer. In fact i have ad started working last weekend. The feeling of spending my own hard earned money was fantastic. I can buy stuffs without guilt for spending taxpayer's money... Awesomeeeee!! But first i have exams to worry about. sigh....

Wad a Mess!

2010-06-16T16:32:00.000+02:00

I know by publishing this picture, this is how my room looks like now. I am putting my reputation at risk. but whatever. Privacy in this matter is not so important, at least to me. oh ya one more thing, i know it's very random.. an idea came across my mind just now. to all my 5.0 classmates, i plan to have a photoshoot for 5.0 next year Feb during chinese new year. i think by next year i should have enough equipments and knowledge to have an small studio photoshooting. but dun expect too much from me. cos i am still new to studio photoshooting too. if you have faith in me and you are interested, let me know.

p/s: i dunno how many of my ex classmates actually read my blog... ooppss my laptop looks cacat in the picture. 3 pictures combined into one. i should have taken more pictures.. oh well its good enough i think.

!@#$%^&* :-(

2010-06-01T22:13:00.000+02:00

Everday we make decisions.
to eat or not to eat,
to buy or not to buy,
to go or not to go.
not matter big or small the decision is,
we still have to think before we decide.

There is time when you would find yourself standing at a crossroad and you think so intensively. You still have no idea which path to take, because at the first place you have no idea where you want to go and what you want.

So how can you choose which path to take without knowing the destination. You might say.. simply choose one.. Anyone will do. For insignificant things like wad to eat for lunch, ya that works; Sometimes its even better and saves time, but for a lifetime decision which there is no turning back, I wish i could just close my eyes and ding dong diang (simply choose one). but i couldn't. It's like walking on the road blindfolded without knowing what I might get into..

Now i am exactly at a crossroad. Four paths lay ahead of me, and i have no f***ing idea which to take or may be i shouldn't have chosen to study automotive engineering at the first place.

Fickle I admit I am. No one i have ever found who is as fickle as me. That's f***ing true.

i think the time will come when i have to hand in the form and you know wad...i will do the same thing again like i did when i applied for my course in Germany.

Making decision is f***ing hard.

P/S: I just could find any adverb better than f***ing in this case. seriously.
You know why people use f*** so frequent bacause their vocabulary is limited. By saying this i also mean myself. yes but i don't mind. it is so f***ing not important right now, compared to situation i am in right now....

Snippet

2010-05-29T01:15:00.000+02:00

I have a lot of things in my mind for the past one week and I want to write them all down. Both my hands are ready on the keyboard but the fingers stay still. Perhaps I know if i do, the post would become a post of me ranting about dissatisfactions and problems in life. Ya true, i always do that especially when i just started blogging.

At the time when i first started writing blog, I was in a whole new stage in my life and new environment. I had a hard time dealing with the changes in life, cultural shock, language barrier and being independent. So i blogged to channel all my feeling to this blog. If you were to ask me to once again read back the old posts, i would ask myself why did i let myself publish these kind of stuffs, what the heck was I thinking back then! So childish, so naive! ya it's darn true. it's like you read back the essays you wrote in primary school. You would laugh for sure, right? but it shows that you have improved. That's a good thing, isn't it? Human makes mistake because we are imperfect. we all did mistakes. What is important is that we learn from the mistakes and don't repeat them. The imperfection within us is what makes us... us.

Suddenly i recall a quote sent by a good old friend of mine long time ago to encourage me.

From Criminal Minds "Out of the sufferings emerges a stronger soul; the strongest soul has the biggest scar seared on it." by Khalil Gibran.

2010-05-22T12:27:00.000+02:00

很久都没有更新我的部落格了，过去的一个星期实在是太忙了。恐怕未来的两个月我会更加忙。

Project Aqua Splash

2010-05-02T17:43:00.000+02:00

The past weekend has been again and again a waste of time from academical perspective. Sunday is coming to an end but Friday seems like yesterday. I feel guilty. Week after weeks I have the same feeling on sunday evening bacause i would ask myself what have I done in weekend and what I have promised myself to do in weekend. I wish weekend could have been longer as time seemed not enough for me to do my stuffs.

I did a small studio project to take pictures of water spash. i managed to get Kah Aik to help me in this project. It took place in a very small room of mine at Berlinerstr. Without transmitter Icould only mount my flashgun on my camera, meaning the direction of light from the flash was fixed. besides that i also bought a few photo cardboard paper of different colours for the background. The most important thing in this project, which i din have, was the 'thing' to make water droplets. From what billy has showed me, i used a water filled plastic bag with a tiny hole at the bottom of it. that wasn't a good idea actually because the water droplets could not be controlled and it could be very very tedious and tiring as well, for Kah Aik in this case. the best thing i should have had was a burette-like-device or burette. So without it i would have to improvise by using whatever i had aound me. Taking pictures under this circumstance, the result was not great, but it was not too bad actually. I could still get some nice shots like 10 out of 200 shots. Come on that wasn't that bad right!

the setting for the shoot.

Dachau

2010-04-22T16:44:00.000+02:00

ARBEIT MACHT FREI means work makes you free or one grants liberty by working. It's a well-known slogan that was placed at the entrance of Nazi concentration camp. During Easter Holiday, i visited one concentration camp in Germany in Dachau, nearby Munich. "Dachau Konzentrationslager" was the first concentration camp establised in Germany in 1933. There are a lot of concentration camps all over Europe. Well you dun have to visit all the camps. but if you happen to be in Europe and you have the chance to go to such camps, i think you should not miss it, because travelling in my opinion is not about sight-seeing, or looking only at the good side but also the history and the so called dark side of the places.

For more pictures of the Dachau Concentration Camp, visit my flickr album.

Over its twelve years as a concentration camp, the Dachau administration recorded the intake of 206,206 prisoners and 31,951 deaths.

Source: Wikipedia.

I love you this much

2010-04-18T22:41:00.000+02:00

I love you this much.

Is Love measurable?

青菜写一写

2010-03-29T21:02:00.000+02:00

站在路中央的我，
眼看着前方的路，
我没有千里眼，也没有顺风耳。
看不见也听不见遥远的道路和人群。
我能看见的
只是我眼前的建筑物，
迎面而来和离我而去的人们，
我以前只会不停的去猜测我的未来，
因为害怕未来而放弃，
因为没有信心而拒绝。
因为没有胆量而躲起来。

现在我总是不明白，
为何以前那么傻，
用望远镜去看世界，
忽略了出现在我身边美好的事物，
朋友与家人给予我的一切

美好的东西不多，
如果好好仔细地看，
一定能看到。
如果用望远镜去看世界，
远方的东西可能可以看到一清二楚
但是眼前的事物却会模模糊糊。

Converge

2010-03-27T11:42:00.000+01:00

What i like about this particular picture is the lines and the windows that converge towards that lady. who was walking down the stairs.

Rojak feelings

2010-03-15T20:02:00.000+01:00

Today i had dinner with seniors. Today the weather was cold. I said the jacket i wore was rather not thick enough for such weather. One of the seniors replied by saying i am not wearing wrong jacket but being in wrong country. Not just me. a lot of people have been asking the very question that i have asked myself umpteen times. Why am i here in Germany? The answer to that question i have already known long time ago. I was naive back then to think that studying abroad and learning a foreign language would be very fun. however, i never regret for that decision.

People tend to forget as time goes by. It;s not a bad thing that people forget. Sometimes forgeting something or someone is a good solution to not remember the pain that has ripped your heart apart before.

9th March. 3 years have passed. What's left are the memories that were immortalized by photos and videos from the past, taken when he was still there with us. He was indeed a good friend.

Today is my first day of my 3rd semester. happy? not really.. sad? not much a bit but i feel sad all the time.. rarely i feel excited here in Germany. Lonely? very. some of friends didn't make it through to 3rd semester. Suicidal? yeah a bit. wad else can you think if you woke up, checked your facebook and found out that you were tagged in a video about killing everyone you know.. and last but not least.. disgusted? yes totally.. because Yi En said he loves me!!!

回到德国的感想

2010-03-10T10:17:00.000+01:00

快乐的时光就好像黄昏般短暂。人很多时候都是贪心的。
我们都希望我们拥有更多的时间去做愉快的事情，最好是永远都可以抛开所有的烦恼和压力，尽情玩乐达到忘我的境界。

黄昏过后就是夜晚。夜晚就犹如人生的黑暗时光，夜晚时，我们前方的路好走不好走就得靠一路上路灯，照亮我们的前方，指引我们。路灯可以是我们说认识的朋友。路灯多的地方，在夜晚的时候走起路来也方便得多。反过来说，如果少了路灯为你照亮前方，你的生活恐怕会艰难很多，因为在漆黑的道路上行走，往往你都不知道你前方是一条柏油路，还是凹凸不平的烂泥路。

搭了十多个小时的飞机后，又好像疯人一样，拿着大包小包，再从飞机场跑到火车站搭火车，两个小时的路程后终于到达了Esslingen。过去的一个月好像做了一场梦，很想很想继续梦下去，不想回到现实世界。回到这里，生活180度转变。过去的一个月，我已经适应热热闹闹的环境，在家里父母亲叫我的声音，电视机声，风扇声，经过我家门前的汽车摩托车的引擎声，妈妈玩Zuma的声音。。。。。。以前我总是觉得妈妈叫我做这个那个很烦，离开家后却很想念有人这样的叫我，觉得很温馨。

回到德国，生活变得很空虚；周遭环境很幽静，隔壁邻居讲话声也听得到一个人没事做躺在床上，聆听从脑袋里发出的声音。三月中了，外面还下着雪，这样的天气我根本都没有心情出门走走。三月中应该是春天的时候，但是气温还是零下三四度。马来西亚的气温在我离开的那一天是三十六度。一时超热一时超冷，受苦的还是我的身体，不停地在打喷嚏。

counting days

2010-03-01T17:28:00.000+01:00

Time accelerates when you want to have more time; Time creeps when you want the clock to tick faster. One month winter holiday is coming to an end and yeah i have enjoyed myself to the fullest at home. My right schedule for holiday activities started a few hours after i got off the plane and now i can finally sit back and relax in the last week of my winter holiday in Malaysia.

I could still remember vividly the excitement i had one year ago before i took the flight to Germany. I could wait to step my foot on German soil. Right now, one year after that, i wish i could stay, on Malaysian soil. The reluctance to bid goodbye to my parents who have done so many things for me and with me not only for the past one month, but for the past 21 years intensifies as 9th March gets near.

To be frank, studying in Germany is not really that fun. As an outsider, you might think that being able to further studies in oversea is something great, something to be proud of. A lot of my friends said to me that i am so lucky and i must have been enjoying my life there in Germany. Well my friends, the experience of being in oversea for a long time is very precious and good for self development and growing up, but to be honest, fun is never the word to describe it. I am not saying that studying abroad should not be encouraged, but a person will have to be strong to face more challenges and hurdles that will make your every steps difficult and be prepared to suffer the consequences of every decision that you make.

The way people think in other countries might not be the same as the way people think in Malaysia. There are things that you think are appropriate to do but for them it is a big mistake or cheating. This is how we learn things,you learn either from the mistakes that you yourself make, or the mistake that other people make.

Vienna

2010-02-22T11:46:00.000+01:00

I personally don't really like Vienna that much. The wind was strong and cold . when i say strong I mean really really strong like Hercules that kind of strong! Bad example i know. pardon me for my wrong usage of words. When I was standing at the middle of the road, the wind blew from my left and I actually moved a few steps to the right.

Unlike Malaysia where shops are open as usual on public holidays, in Europe almost all the shops are closed during public holidays. It was a bit troublesome to find food.. but surprisingly Christmas market was still on going on Christmas eve. i think it's for the sake of earning foreigner's money.. nevertheless if you have the chance to travel in German speaking countries like Germany and Austria, do visit the Christmas markets there.. drink some Glühwein to help keeping your body warm..

离别

2010-02-20T17:01:00.000+01:00

我们一生中总是离不开与朋友亲人分离的情节。十八岁前的我还是生活在父母亲的被窝里不怎么了解看着在我们生活扮演着重要角色的人离去的感觉。对现在的我来说，这种感觉一点都不陌生。数一数，我离乡背井念书已经有四年多。那么多年过去了，我已经习惯别人离我而去的感觉，经历多了有时候我也麻木了，比以前看开了许多。

当一个人不在你身边太久，你是否会随着光阴的流去而慢慢地忘记有他/她在你的生活的感觉。刚开始可能你会觉得有点不习惯，总觉得生活好象缺少了某种东西。日子久了，你就会开始习惯没有他/她的生活。我的哥哥在我form 2 的时候就到吉隆坡念书，九个月后便到日本去继续深造。一去就去了五，六年。现在他还是在日本念书。以前还会很想念与他一起生活，有吵有闹，有欢有喜，现在偶尔只会想一想。我俩都长大了，在一起的时间也不长，关系也随着时间的过去而变生疏了。

以前每次要回到莎亚南念书时，我坐在巴士上看着我的父母亲在巴士旁等待巴士启程。每次我都叫他们送我上巴士后就回家，但是他们偏偏就是不听话，他们总是在巴士旁等到巴士司机启动引擎离去后才甘愿回家。虽然我不是看着亲人离去，但是离他们而去的我也很了解他们那种依依不舍地看着自己的孩子离开他们身边的心情。有哪个父母是不希望孩子们留在自己的身边？有哪个父母是希望可以过着孤单寂寞的生活，家里冷清清？

二零零六年三月九日我的好友因癌症而离开了这世界。他的离去影响了很多很多人。他的父母亲失去了一个聪明伶俐有乖巧的唯一儿子；而我们这班朋友失去了一个乐于助人的好朋友；我自己则失去一个最关心我的好朋友。看着朋友永远的离去的感受只有亲身经历过的人才会明白它原来是那么的痛。

如果逃避不了分离，我们就得坚强面对，抱着重逢的希望。

ps: cham lo! 我的华语越来越差料！不要见怪！

One year in GERMANY

2010-02-13T11:34:00.001+01:00

Time flies seriously macam (like) rocket. (very cliche i know but it's darn true) perhaps it's because i am having almost the same routine every day in my life for the past one year. It has been one year ever since i first stepped my foot on the German soil. Our seniors are going for practical training soon while the juniors have just arrived in Germany having their preparation course now. So many things have changed in one year and in this world things are changing rapidly.

Looking back at the things that i have achieved in Germany so far, I feel utterly disappointed with myself for the poor result i have got. Other than that, there was once i felt really down and emotionally compromised after i had an unintended confrontation with my lecturer. Every word he said to me was like the songs in the playlist. they kept repeating and repeating in my mind to an extent of having the intention to just stab myself right into my chest with a knife just to end everything. No kidding. But as you can see, i am writing this to tell you, that means i am still alive and walking.. Well, it wasn't that bad after all after i met him for 2nd to apologize to my lecturer and he even asked for my name. I am not sure whether it's a good thing but he remembers me, at least. I learned my lesson very well through the confrontation. Well what happened in the past stay in the past and it's ad over. I shall look at the bright side and work really hard next semester.

Foolish.

2010-01-28T00:29:00.000+01:00

'Be Brave..'
'Be Strong..'
'Look at the bright side...'

i know.. but sometimes letting go is the hardest thing to do..

Miss you dear.. badly

Vienna plus some thoughts of mine

2010-01-06T02:35:00.000+01:00

A friend of mine said to me that using a less than Rm3K compact camera is never easy to impress a mighty photographer who owns a Rm3K Canon DSLR(he insinuated me who happens to be tagged in his pictures in facebook and own a canon 500d, perhaps with a little bit of sarcasm by saying a mighty photographer).

Having a dslr is something really common nowadays, common not as in there is a dslr in every household. What i mean is that dslr camera is no more camera only used by professional photographer. Some people have a dslr because they really have strong interest in photography. Some people just simply like the feeling of having a dslr hanging around their neck, in other words having a big cardboard hanging around the neck and written on the card board "i am rich cos i can afford a dslr" Frankly speaking, having a 500g camera hanging around the neck might make you look cool and it serves as a status symbol, but it is never comfortable.

If you compare the quality of the pictures taken using dslr and compact digital camera, no doubt that dslr's, under the same circumstances, are better. But one can take a good picture using a digital camera too. It just depends on your definition of a good picture. I myself am a dslr camera user and I can say that not all my pictures are good. Since I got my camera, I have taken countless of shitty pictures, shitty not just as in angle not good, underexposed or overexposed, the subjects not in focus bla bla bla, but as in soulless and lack of stories to tell.

Mr B told me yesterday that you have think yourself as the person who looks at the things or scenery that you are looking when you take pictures, not as a photographer; It's about what can the person tell from the pictures.

Like what Chase Jarvis says, the best camera is the one with you. Just use whatever you have to take pictures. It doesn't have to canon 500D, nikon D90. it can be a 6.0MP compact camera or 2.0 MP camera phone.

watch the following video from Chase Jarvis.

Great Market Hall

2010-01-02T18:49:00.001+01:00

It's hard not to resist yourself from not doing something you want to do so much as you have other things which are clearly more important to do. it's like resisting the desire to buy something that you want so much (for me lenses) and you do have money in your bank account, but you have to use the money to survive in coming months. Well, we are living in a world full of desires and it all depends on ourselves how well we can cope with the desires and resist them.

I have been telling myself that i should start preparing for the coming end of semester exam. but i am feeling reluctant to even flip through my books... My mind would somehow automatically blocked itself from absorbing any knowledge when it is in German.

oh boy oh boy! What has the great Market Hall to do with what i am writing here!! too lazy to even create a new post.. -tsktsk -shakehead-

Trio

2009-12-30T17:48:00.001+01:00

I have edited this picture for umpteen times. The previous version which i think was 'over-edited'. Having traveled with three of them was fun and I have done things which i never have done before in my life- being unusual William. What is usual William? no alcohol may be.. no cigarettes.. talk about books and facts.. not crazy..being serious all the time.. yeah may be that's usual William. I told one of my friend that i used to have an account in ICQ and my nickname was badboy.. guess what was his reaction! He laughed every single time he mentioned about it in front of others.. Is it so hard to imagine me as a badboy? ha!

my fellow 2ndary school friends, wad you think?

Budapest 2009

2009-12-29T22:53:00.000+01:00

Budapest is a beautiful city, perhaps the best city in Europe i have visited so far and if i have the chance i would like to visit Budapest with my girlfriend. One of the reasons that i fell in love with Budapest are the beautiful scenery at night. If you are into photography, tripod is one thing that should have with you all the time during your trip or if you are lazy to carry bulky tripod around, perhaps you might be able to find a bench or table to put your camera if you are lucky. Otherwise forget about taking nice sharp pictures at night.

unlike any other trips i had so far, i couch-surfed with Timothy and we stayed with a Hungarian for one night. His name is Maty. He told us a lot about history of Hungary, food eg Hungarian pickles and alcohol eg Palinka and Jägermeister like Unikum. Palinka is a traditional Hungarian fruit Brandy. I bought a 40ml Palinka and 100ml Unikum. Personally i dun like Unikum because it's made out of herbs.. not my type of alcohol i would say.

Things that you can do in Budapest(From my experience):
1. Sightseeing. just grab a map and navigate yourself around the city.
2. Visit the Great market Hall.
3. Pamper yourself at Gellért Bath. Thermal bath for 3800HUF (14Euro)
4. have your lunch or dinner at Restaurant Menza. This restaurant is highly recommended by the author of Lonely Planet and almost every tourist that walk in has Lonely Planet. The food there is quite nice, the service of the waiter and waitress is good and they are well coordinated (the waitresses are pretty!). For more information, click here.
5. Try some of Palinka.
6. Buy some chocolate with cheese filling at any supermarket or RELAY. Those chocolates are kept under refrigeration.

I climbed all the way up the Gellért Hill to have bird's eye view of the city. Having conquered Mountain Kinabalu (haha. not really actually) makes climbing any other small hills like eating nuts.. there are buses going up to the hill but i would rather climb than paying for the ticket.

The great market hall in Budapest is one of the nice places you should not miss. There are 3 floors. Upstairs are all those shops which sell handicrafts and foods, while on the ground floor are the stalls selling all kind of meats and vegetable. Well the first time i went to the market, i din notice that there are more shops underground. I know about it only after Maty brought us there. do not expect to have directories in market...At the underground level, there are many stalls selling pickles. The pickles all looked the same to me, the difference, according to Maty, is that the stalls are owned by different families. and the taste might differ from each other.

Talking about the public transport, overall the public transport is quite good. Even though the trains and the buses are quite old, they have time table and most importantly they DO follow the time table. Unlike KTM and Rapid KL buses. However you might end up buying a lot of tickets from go from A to B if you need to change from bus to metro or tram. One ticket costs 300HUF (about 1.20 Euro) or 250 HUF for journey not further than 3 stops. One ticket is only valid for one type of public transport. if you want to change from metro to bus, you will have to buy 2 tickets (600HUF). There is no difference if your destination is four stations away or 10 stations away. The price is same.

This trip was my first time traveling with my dslr.. I really find it very tedious to walking around with big camera and tripod around. Nevertheless it was fun looking at the world through viewfinder.

Signing in, from Bratislava

2009-12-26T23:08:00.000+01:00

currently in Bratislava, Slovakia.
just drank 2 shots of Becherovka and one shot of Absint
feeling a bit dizzy now..

have taken a lot of pictures during in Vienna and Bratislava..
tomorrow will be going to Budapest...

Merry Chrismast and Happy New Year.
Frohe Weihnachten...
Belated wish from me in Bratislava, Slovakia

William, 26.12.2009, Bratislava

Fahrrad

2009-12-19T12:57:00.000+01:00

A bicycle outside my hostel..

Jugendherberge, Kontanz

2009-11-30T22:21:00.000+01:00

Leaves have fallen leaving the trees bald. Autumn comes slowly to its end. Winter starts to creep in. There was no other way better to start the day than watching the sun rise from the horizon from Jugenherberge, Konstanz. Breathtaking!

Randomness

2009-11-14T22:47:00.000+01:00

Pictures taken in Esslingen Park which i walk past every weekday on my way to school

Bunte Hund in Esslingen, a guy who wears what he likes to attract attention of people around him. he is such a nice person and a good friend that he has no problem mixing with all kinds of people and would rather suffer just to help his friends. I think i would be admitted to hospital many times without him in my life.. just kidding.

really glad that he came.

Week-End

2009-11-14T10:20:00.000+01:00

First

2009-11-05T18:04:00.000+01:00

There is always first for everything. well this is my first HDR picture. Picture was shot in Esslingen, a town that i am currently studying in and a place i call 2nd home.There are so many places yet i discover and I shall explore more and more places with my camera... and hopefully i could do it with someone.. to enhance the taste of the journey.

life could be very dull without someone that could share the joy and pain with… think positively and hope the days in Esslingen will get brighter…

2009-11-04T22:32:00.000+01:00

I start running

for I found the road
that leads me to my destination.

with high hope that i would be able to catch up

Transform

2009-11-02T23:01:00.000+01:00

Herbst

2009-10-28T18:11:00.000+01:00

my dear, Happy Birthday to you... and i love you always

Do you notice? corrected!

2009-10-22T22:58:00.000+02:00

When the car goes forward and backward, do you ever notice that there is a difference?
Yes indeed there is! Think for a while......... .. do you hear anything?

oh well when the car goes forward, there is no sound except the engine sound.. of course when you reverse your car, there will still be engine sound.. you can't reverse you car without the engine started, can you? so when you enter reverse gear and press the accelerator, you hear some sound which will eventually get louder and louder... yeap that's the difference.. so it has something to do with the gears.. the gears that convert the engine power to forward movement are called helical gears (auf deutsch schrägverzahnte Zahnräder), while for the backward movement the gears are called .spur gears (auf deutsch geradeverzahnte Zahnräder)

Spur gear

helical gear

i bet you are asking, WHY?

so this is the answer you looking for...
Specifically the way the teeth in the reverse gear are shaped. The forward gears in your transmission are helical shaped, meaning the individual teeth on the gear are curved rather than straight but reverse has straight cut teeth.

Why is straight noisier than helical? A helical gear's teeth are always in contact with the next gear thanks to their shape. Picture two straight gears moving very slowly. There's a split second that you'll see space between the teeth. The continuous tiny tapping of the gears remaking contact with each other creates the whine you hear. Since a helical gear has long, curved teeth, the point at which two gears meet is never out of contact, so no tiny taps, and no noise.

source:http://autorepair.about.com/od/quicktips/qt/reverse_gear.htm

Quote of the day

2009-10-20T23:28:00.000+02:00

"The world is full of thorns and pebbles. But, if we have to walk in spite of such obstacles, instead of trying to remove them, which is impossible, it is advisable to wear a pair of slippers and walk without harm."

Face problems with no fear. Obstacles in life are inevitable. On our way to achieve something we often faces a lot problems, critics, accusations, even people who influence us or sabotage us.. be brave and roar!!!!

written by someone who could not practice what he preaches…

Quote of the day

2009-10-19T22:34:00.000+02:00

Out of sheer loneliness, people turn to alcohol either as a means towards socialization or as a way to drown and wash away their loneliness….

But alcohol can never wash away one’s troubles; it only worsens them, like feeding more fuel to fire

相机。梦想

2009-10-10T22:51:00.000+02:00

自从参与Pat的Phototrip后，我深深地爱上了摄影，也很想很想为自己买一部dslr相机。以前没有多余钱，根本买不起DSLR相机。自从来到德国念书后，我省吃俭用，抽了一笔钱，终于买了一部DSLR相机。

有人曾经跟我说过，不是每个人拥有畢卡索所用过的毛笔，就能画出拥有畢卡索的水准的作品。那时候的我觉得心如刀割。但是我却觉得我们凡事做事情，不需要顾虑到别人怎样看你，只要我们自己觉得那是对的，而且是我们能力范围里的事情，我们就应该去办我们所要办的事，勇于追求我们的梦想。
PS：功课做到一般突然间想起那个人对我说的话，那人的话已经深深地刻在我脑海里了，时时刻刻提醒我要努力学习，不断地学习和改善拍摄技巧。

Autumn in Esslingen

2009-10-07T20:25:00.000+02:00

My winter semester starts last week. The timetable is more hectic compared to the first semester. with so many subjects which are very new to me, to cope with.

PS: Class finished early so decided to walk around in Esslingen to snap some photos. it's fascinating to see leaves of different colours...

decided to upload my pictures in Flickr account as well..ll upload pictures from time to time. this is the link. click here.

Fantaghiro

2009-10-06T21:56:00.000+02:00

Suddenly i thought of a movie that i fell in love with when i was little. The movie is called Fantaghiro. you watched before? it was aired in TV2 if i am not mistaken. It's like western version of Hua Mulan. After so many years.. let me count..ehhh.. 10++ years. sometimes the songs from the movie just came across my mind and i would hum it. the songs, though i don't understand a single word she sings but i like it, serene and calm i would feel when i listen to the songs..

here's the video. enjoy...

3rd OCT 2009 Mooncake Festival

2009-10-03T23:02:00.000+02:00

远在德国的耀铭祝大家中秋节快乐！

PS:I used to carry lantern and walk around in my neighbourhood at night with my friends during Mooncake Festival. but nowadays i could hardly see any children walking at night because it's not safe anymore to walk at night especially for children due to the increasing crime rate in my neighbourhood, from snatch thief to orang minyak even murder cases..No kidding and i have been living there ever since i was born..

2009-10-02T15:50:00.000+02:00

孤单。

Badcannstatter Volksfest 2009

2009-09-28T17:48:00.000+02:00

Many people around the world know about Oktoberfest. in fact most of the people where they are asked about what they know about Germany, they would say beer or Oktoberfest. Like Oktoberfest, Badcannstatter Volksfest is also one of the many regional fest in Germany. Ocktoberfest is the largest fest while Volksfest is the third largest.

We managed to find a seat in one of the tents. there was a very nice old man treat us 1.0 litre beer right after we ordered food and beer. PROST!!! i personally like Hefe Weizen. I find it very nice to drink but it ain't cheap. 7.90 Euro for 1 litre beer.

Munich is way too way from Esslingen so I went to the Badcannstatter Volksfest with my friends. and i was very happy because i got to use my friend's canon F1.8 50mm lens. i have always wanted to try some shots using 50mm f1.8. but i wasn't satisfied with the shots i have taken. Considering that was the first time i used that lens and i am still new to DSLR photography , i am contented with the result and i have learnt a lot from this outing.

Bukit Bendera/Penang Hill/升旗山

2009-09-14T20:55:00.000+02:00

if you have no money and no friend to accompany you during holiday or all you have nothing better to do but to surf internet, then holiday would be indeed mundane and boring. The same activities repeat everyday. You might be slowly becoming horizontal challenged and thus pretending you are still slim by holding your breath to make your tummy smaller every time you look at yourself in the mirror or avoiding taking pictures of yourself because your face would look as round as a ball... am i speaking from my own experience? haha you bet i am...

I had a plan. my plan is to hike from kaki bukit of Bukit Bendera to the top. The trail which starts from the entrance beside botanical garden would need about 3 hours to reach the top. Oh Well.. plan always turns out to be just a plan at the end. i think sometime it's better to do something impromptu, because most of the time it turns out to be something. So instead of hiking, i went up to the top not with my own feet but with monorail and carried out my filial duty-spend more time with my parents.

First outing with my new camera was OK... try to get used to my camera. Taking a shot through the viewfinder was really different. how different hard to describe... i concentrate more on details...

I din take a lot of pictures of the monorail because of certain circumstances. eh like I was forbidden to saty at the platform of the monorail because it was too dangerous etc. One return ticket for adult costs you 4 Ringgit and it is about 45 minutes ride from the bottom to the top. you will have to change monorail when you reach certain height to reach the top. The monorail is tortoise like slow and frankly there is nothing nice to capture. i took some pictures but all turned out to be not so nice photo cos of the dirty windshield and windows.

Guess what that is? i dunno what it is called but the monorail depends on it to move downhill and uphill. if i am not mistaken the diesel motor is located behind those "wheels" inside the building.

There is nothing nice to see on top actually. but there is a observatory up there where you could see Penang from bird's eye view.. for me that will be the only thing that make the journey going up worth -while.
There are Police Station, Post Office, Health Center, Mosque, Hindu Temple, Hotels up there..

George Town...

Penang Bridge

Bottom right: Kek Lok Si Temple

No Smoking Ad

2009-09-09T15:50:00.000+02:00

I came across this advertisement on tv commercial.. it is very catchy and got my100% attention when i first saw watched that advertisement.. very typical Malaysian ads. they will never forget to put malays, chinese and indian in the ads in conjunction with One Malaysia.. but does it work in encouraging smokers to quit? nope...

出国

2009-09-03T21:30:00.001+02:00

（以上的照片不是我拍的）

正在日本深学的哥哥在一年前电邮给我的一篇文章，在此很想与那些跟我和我哥哥一样的留学生或是即将出国念书的朋友们分享。文章的作者不明，没有经过作者的同意就把这篇文章刊登在我的部落各，希望作者您不介意。

有人對我說，"你以爲你出國就了不起了？"

出國的人，沒有什麽了不起的，真的，出來有段年頭的我也沒有覺得出國有什麽了不起的。
但是，出國以後，我們每個人都很了不起。如此說是因爲，我們有着其他人不能體會的辛酸苦辣，也看過和經過太多氣憤無奈。可是從來不願說起，并不等于我們沒有故事，恰恰相反的是我們的故事太多，已經不再爲此大驚小怪，或者應該說，我們沒有時間也沒有精力再去想如何訴說了。

外國人
不論是自己向往，還是因爲其他的原因來到國外，從到了異國他鄉的第一步，我們就有了一個共同的名字，外國人。外國人，顧名思義就是外面國家的人，一個本不屬于本國的人，外面的永遠和裏面的有着所謂的區别。本國人口頭上是很注意回避用"差别"這個詞來形容這種所謂的區别，回避使用帶有優劣色彩的詞彙，然而這又能如何？實際生活中，赤裸露骨的差别何處不在？租房子，進學校，找工作，就連消費都包括在内。外國人這個名字，随時提醒着我們這裏不是家，所以不要幻想平等，不要奢望同情，最後能幫自己的隻有自己，要漸漸學會自己疼愛自己。

對于在外面的我們來說，有兩群朋友，國内和國外的。每次回國，封印的記憶被打開，見到國内朋友是一件多麽幸福的事情。隻是随着在兩個不同環境成長的我們和他們之間，共同語言越來越少，當自己滿懷激情的要把經曆和感受說給他們的時候，反而讓朋友們感到莫名其妙，雖然每次朋友都會微笑點頭，但是直覺告訴自己，他們不會懂，就像自己很難理解朋友們的許多想法一樣。在國外的朋友就不同了。經曆相同的事情，接觸相同的時間，共同語言就會多許多，然而離的越近，摩擦面也就越大，好在雖然時不時吵到面紅耳赤，幾個小時以後，大家又都會回到不分你我，因爲心裏都明白，處一個朋友是如何寶貴的，快樂是因爲兩個人的快樂，悲傷是因爲兩個人的悲傷。蝙蝠不會和鳥兒飛翔，也不同于獸類的習性，能和它爲伍的隻有和自己一樣的蝙蝠。

想家想父母，但是不懂得如何能确切表達。即便在國外學了許多語言，卻發現自己的表達能力越來越差。 "慈母手中線，遊子身上衣"這裏面的分量，心裏明白，也想說，說不出來。想家的感覺很美，就像圓月的深夜，想要沉浸在這個美麗中，卻有冷風時時提醒自己，這是外國的月亮。家，對我們來說，是藏在心裏最暖的一個寄托，不敢打開這個盒子，一旦打開，眼淚就會有流下來。然而，外國不需要我們的眼淚，隻需要我們汗水。親情也自然就成了一個被禁忌的話題，成了扭着心頭的痛。

我們需要的不是同情，而是認可。
我們在國外，努力過，成功過，相信過，期望過，欣慰過，失敗過，猜疑過，傷心過，失望過，憤怒過，高興過，糊塗過，領悟過，張揚過，虛僞過，坦誠過，興奮過，平淡過，堕落過，發奮過，認真過，馬虎過，悲哀過，同情過，憐憫過，無奈過，争取過，承受過，美麗過，醜陋過，施舍過，得到過，想念過，忘記過，珍惜過，遺失過，掙紮過，痛苦過，精明過，瘋狂過，傻過，哭過，笑過，憂過，愁過，真心恨過，更真心愛過。

有血有肉的我們在國外曾經走過。
所以，我們有資格說。
我們驕傲，因爲我們在國外。

厚脸皮

2009-09-02T18:07:00.000+02:00

最近我很想写些有意义的东西，
但是就是写不出。
手放在键盘上想开始打字的时候，
那堆动力又渐渐的减弱;
打了几个字后，
又按几次的backspace，
没有心情去写。
可能在家里吃喝玩乐,
没有伤心事好写吧！
因为每一次我post在部落各的
不是照片和长篇大论的废话
就是充满着情绪和怨言的post。

好好的想一想，
我的部落各也快要三岁了。
老实说我从来都没想过三年后的今天
我还会继续地写下去。
以前的我很怕别人看我写的作文。
除了老师，可以看我写的作文
五只手指就可以数完了，
而且还有剩。
因为写作能力差的我感到有点paiseh。

但是现在的我呀，
敢敢地把作品就这样post在我的部落各。
给朋友甚至我不认识的人阅读。
三年前的我绝对不会有那样大的勇气。
三年后的我有的不只是豹子胆，还有恒心。
可能我的脸皮越来越厚也不一定哦！

好吧再此想跟大家分享我朋友所写的一首歌。

孙燕姿的《遇见》听过吗？

一面听一面看歌词wo……请注意以下的歌词，能唱就试着跟着唱

艺芝自称是乖孩终日在人面前装可爱
华吉又称烧火鸡说起鸟话总是称第一
艺华画画真厉害画的大家都像双胞胎
星龙suppa的最爱说话快的没人能明白
艺雯生来外表斯文来骗人
贝棋最爱奸笑又语无伦次
秀婷以看帅哥立即就高兴
耀铭脸皮厚得子弹穿不进

如果你不知道我的华语名，我名叫赵耀铭。以上的歌词是出自艺雯和秀婷。而且还被刊登在我们的毕业刊。我的脸皮真的有这样厚meh？

Heilbron Summer 2009

2009-08-31T08:19:00.000+02:00

Spent 2 weeks in Heilbron for German Language Course which was sponsored by InWENT. the German Course was a bit mundane actually. Perhaps having to see the same teacher every weekdays from 9.45am to 3.00am was too boring and her monotonous voice and traditional teaching method failed to gain my concentration. Except the presentation and the group discussion session, others i find rather useless and boring. Well the fun part was of course the after-class-activities, we spent time hanging around in City Center of Heilbron eating really nice ice cream and food.

Patricia was willing to lend me her camera so i took some pictures using her camera.

you know how many scoops are there, the middle one which was mine? 2 scoops!! and it cost only 1.40 Euro!!! In Esslingen (my place) it is like 6 scoops and it would cost me one Euro per scoop. i couldn't finish my ice cream because it was too much and i was really full...

Freundshaftsbecher! it was damn big and recommended for 4-5 persons. and again they couldn't finish the ice cream as well

Life's Brief Candle by William definitely not Shakespear

2009-08-13T20:07:00.000+02:00

My life had been perfect
until i was whizzed into an unknown place.
I see nothing but darkness.
the nothingness in the dark lures the fear out of me.
my mind is so confused
and filled with hundreds or may be thousands of question marks
but i see nothing around me that can satisfy my curiosity.
then i start to ask myself:
Is this what they call
the stop before the end of everything?
the crossover from life to death?

Am i already dead?

If my guess is correct..
No! No! my guess is not correct!
my life is too brief to be ended so soon.
I have plenty to do and i know i could have done more!

Why! The Creator, why!
Where are you when everything's gone wrong!
Why do You bring me to this world
With a lifespan as brief as a candle..
Without your realization i was created
with a time bomb planted deep inside me
which would explode when the time is right.

It ain't fair not only for me
but also for those who have really believed in me
and have had faith in creation of yours and thus
spent a fortune for your creation that you take no responsibility.

For the past 2 years,
i had a really great time with him.
i was very well taken care of
and i still look as good as new.
Schade! that it's only the outer appearance.
what's left is just a piece or worthless junk inside my body
and a broken heart of someone whom i spent most of my life time with.
without him my life would have been even shorter than i could imagine.

I pity him
for what he has gone through getting me.
I pity him
for his lack of buying instinct and wrong choice he made.
I pity him
for he trusted the creator and the trouble he has been through so far.

if my guess is correct and this is the end of my life,
i just wanna say thank you to him for everything he has done to me.
the only thing that i am not regretful is having him as my companion.
with that i can walk towards the end with my head held high!

if you are wondering what the hell i am talking about... well that's me- HP tx1005au! hehe
(William: i wrote this for self-reassurance.. so that i don't feel so sad.. haih. Schade)

La Plaza de Toros de Las Ventas, Madrid

2009-07-18T02:38:00.000+02:00

Bullring-La Plaza de Toros de Las Ventas, Madrid-There is no better time to travel in Madrid than in May and Jun as the world renown San Isidro bullfights festival takes place in Plaza de Toros during these 2 months, which you on no account should miss if you are not a ardent animal lover. during the festival, there are bullfights every day for 20 days and all the bullfighters who perform during this festival are the best fighters in Spain. The tickets during this festival are difficult to get as they will be sold out almost immediately as soon as they are released. But we managed to buy "black" tickets which cost 200% more than the normal price.

i din manage to take any close shots cos i was sitting at the last row on the highest level of the bullring. so the bulls and the fighters were only as big as ants. So with my 3x optical zoom Canon 980IS, i came out with these pictures.

the entrance of the bullring. the weather was scorching hot that day!!

Bull fighter in action. the pictures are blurry cos i used digital zoom.. it was tiring to chase after the bull with my camera.

when the bull is out of control, the fighters would hide behind that wooden wall. look at the red yellow sticks on the bull, those sticks with hooks are used to weaken the bull by letting the bull bleed slowly. those fighters with pink cape appear before the matador (hero of the show) with red cape to allow the matador to observe the bull's behavior.

at the end, the bull was worn out and killed by the matador using his sword. killing animal for entertainment purposes... that's the reason bullfights are banned in many countries. but not in Spain..

Madrid 3rd Jun 2009

2009-07-06T20:48:00.000+02:00

:D random update

2009-06-28T01:46:00.000+02:00

Studied together with Yi En in his room and it turned out to be not so fruitful. took picture of his BMW using his camera instead.. Monday KONSTRUKTION test!! wish me good luck man!! i need it.. a lot... to pass.

怀念从前的我

2009-06-23T19:06:00.000+02:00

我呀！
不知道为什么
我一直都走在两个人的背影
以前中学时期是这样
现在也是这样
跟他俩走在一起
总觉得自己像个外人
跟过路人没什么两样
要问路的时候
他们就走过来向我打个招呼
问我该怎么走。
有时候我觉得我与他俩之间
隔着一道很高很高的墙
很想很想跃过那道墙
跟他俩混在一起
有说有笑地走在一块
但是日子久了
便觉得那道墙越来越高
而我再也无法征服那道墙
我只能坐在墙的另一边
聆听他们嘻嘻哈哈和笑声

突然间
我很想念五零班的同学。
以前从沙亚南回到双溪大年
跟他们聚集在一起的时候
我觉得我好像复活起来的木乃伊
最喜欢的就是将人家的是非。哈哈！
讲谁和谁走在一起；谁和谁分手了；
或者是讲些以前发生的有趣事件。
我们在一起有说有笑地。。
觉得好像回到属于我的世界。

所以凡是有五零班聚会，我决不缺席
但是每次都是只有几只小猫出席而已！

突然想起。。。。
以前我们班上四十四个人，
四十三个人可以在班上讲不在场的那一个人的坏话！
有时候还可以笑翻天！
哈哈哈哈！

Quick update!

2009-06-22T22:32:00.000+02:00

Presenting my workspace! a place where i do mostly everything.. having meal, doing homework, playing games, surfing internet...

my room very messy.. carpet damn dirty.. exam !-sigh-

连heater也不放过！

beside my bed also got notes... -shakehead-

inside the box is my camera> canon 980IS.. gonna say bye bye to my camera ad.. it will be on the way to japan tomorrow.. i surely ll miss it perhaps for couple of months until i got my new camera.. a dslr. oh well planing just to buy a entry level camera instead of mid end camera like nikon D90.. cos i am still a student.. like what my mum always said. 不会赚钱，就只懂得花钱。。 still don't know how to earn money, only know how to spend money (sorry bad translation.. ). now due to economic crisis, my parents' salary is just enough for them to spend on loan payment and groceries only. if i were still in secondary school, i might have to stop attending tuition class cos my total monthly tuition fee is about RM 250. come to think of it. without JPA scholarship, my life would be the other way round compared to my life now. Hmmm.. I ll get a better camera in the future with my own money...

Regrets

2009-06-13T18:13:00.000+02:00

It has been almost 21 years
since i came to this world.

Life has not been too difficult for me;
modest but mundane.
There are so many thing i have achieved;
and at the same time
there are things that i have yet to achieve.

Sometimes
when i look at my friends, doing what they do best
i really feel envious of what they are capable of.
then i would asks myself,
what i do best;
i could hardly find one
For most of the people
it’s never a difficult question to answer
playing music instrument
playing football,
playing badminton
Singing
drawing
playing games
telling jokes and so on

I click the rewind button
to have a look of what i have done in my past
I could easily tell what i have achieved academically
how many As in exam
how many prizes i have got from competitions

Looking at people' life,
and comparing theirs to mine
i really hope
i can have the life they have been having

i press the rewind button
again and again
just to find something which is not about studies.
but to no avail, all i can find is about grades and trophies.

Because of the old fashion mindset of mine,
i have given up so many great things
that i used to be capable of doing
like drawing...

for my SPM
for my tuition classes
and for power and high post in Stjohn
i gave up drawing

i remember vividly
there was once my art teacher (in art studio) showed my drawing to seniors
and said: "see, a form one student can draw like this"
i was very proud of myself at that moment

what i have now....

apa pun tak ada...

i blame nobody
but myself
cos i am the one
who let it slip away from my grip

result slip is nothing but just a paper now
trophies is nothing but like a vase
after a while they would be forgotten and not important anymore

But skills and talent are things that you can bring
no matter where you go and no matter where you are

Pfingsten Holiday: Lisbon

2009-06-11T18:42:00.000+02:00

Pfingsten Holiday: Porto

2009-06-07T21:40:00.000+02:00

三年前的我，

一个从来都没踏出马来西亚的井底蛙，
从没想过三年后的今天，
可以看到比井里所看到更广阔的天空。

3 years ago,
being a person who never ever set my foot outside of Malaysia,
never thought that 3 years later i would have the chance to travel in oversea.

一个每天都把学业和课外活动摆在第一位的青少年，希望可以像哥哥一样拿到奖学金出国念书。为了奖学金，我努力奋斗了好几年，终于获得了一直所追求的机会。得到奖学金的那一刻，我知道我的未来从此就会改变。奖学金减轻家庭负担，父母亲可以松一口气，不必再为学费而拼命节俭；而我自己不再为零用钱而烦脑。有了钱，我可以办到我以往一直想做的事情，也可以买到我喜欢的东西。我以为我会很快乐很幸福，但是我以点也不觉得快乐。

现在的我不再是井底蛙，而是一只鸟，自由自在的飞翔。

13th Horoscope?

2009-05-20T23:27:00.000+02:00

Can someone tell me whether it is true that there are now 13 horoscopes now?
i read from internet saying that there is a new horoscope called Ophiuchus 蛇夫座 also known as Serpentarius or serpent holder.....

huh now my horoscope is not Cancer, but Gemini!!!

Realization that came late

2009-05-18T20:33:00.000+02:00

Today when i was walking back to my class from toilet,
I saw a mum standing at the door step of the classroom next to mine
She was an Asian, most probably a Chinese
it looked like she was finding someone,
perhaps her son or daughter amidst Germans
For what reason i had no idea.
It was not something very special
but somehow it attracted my attention
It reminded me of my mum

When I was in primary school,
very often I left my books at home
and I forgot to bring
I would be very scared because I would be punished
More precisely I might get caned by teacher
so I would call my mum right away using the public phone in my school compound
and ask her to bring the books to school for me
very often I would get scolded
I knew I deserved it
but most of the time
she would drag herself out of the bed
put on her jeans and jacket
get on the 9841
and bring the books to me
despite the coldness

in about 20 minutes she would reach school and give me the books
the anxiousness would be vanished into thin air
when i saw her entering the school gate with the books i wanted
I would be super super happy
because i would be spared from being canned or scolded by teachers
one thing i never realized until now is that
i never really appreciated what she did to me at that time
because the feeling of being spared from the fearful caning
got better of me.

Perhaps the realization came late
but it's never too late to say 'thank you' to my mum

and lastly Happy Mother's Day

Untitled

2009-05-04T23:29:00.001+02:00

He sits at the corner of his room
lit only by solitary table lamp;
right in front of him
leaning against the wall
is two-feet-tall mirror
he stares at image of himself in the mirror
in disbelief, smirking
that image of his
so familiar yet so unrecognizable

He smells of cigarettes
He smells of alcohol
and lipstick marks on his collar and neck
whether he is drunk,
whether he is still conscious
whether he is aware of what he did
no one knows but him

He has changed
because he has always wanted to change
because he is no more a teenager
but a grown-up
who is independent from family
who can make decision for himself
who has the freedom of doing anything at will
without restraints from anybody but himself

He has changed
so sudden and without his realization
of the person he has became
He has longed to be a grown-up
and finally he has become one
but is that what he has always wanted?
Is the life he is having now
the life he has always longed for?

No one knows
but himself
he had the choice
to be the person he wanted to be
and he has taken the path that he had chosen
no one could say that
the choice he has made was wrong
because it is not our right to judge
who are we to judge others,
as we are all human being
and human being make mistakes
as we also want to be the person
we want to be.
10 years later
when he rewinds his life
back to 10 years before
he might feel no regrets
even though others think he is a jerk,
as he has enjoyed to the fullest;
or he might feel ashamed of himself
as that was the darkest time of his,
that he tried to erase from his memory
as if that never happened in his life.
No one knows for sure
the consequences of the decision made
Perhaps he would still be a successful person
a responsible employee or employer
a dedicate husband and caring father

while on the other hand those who think they will be successful
as they has been a good and well mannered person
and saying no to alcohol and cigarette handed to them
they might end up being not successful.

...................................................................................................
From time to time
people change
because of realization
and lesson learned throughout their life
and also the consequences of decision they have made.

April 2009

2009-04-30T22:23:00.000+02:00

Today is the last day of April. Tomorrow is Labour Day and it means holiday! Oh yeaaah! I still couldn't believe that I have been in Germany for almost four months. It's a bit cliché but time really flies since the day I stepped my feet on a foreign country for the first time in my life.

This week I felt reluctant to get out of my bed because of the cold weather in the morning. Average temperature in the morning is 5-8 degree Celsius! So it would be very nice to ignore the annoying alarm and stay in the bed. I thought that the weather is going to get warmer and I start buying T shirts for summer. But then the weather is cold again after 2 weeks of 20 degree Celsius nice weather. People have to put their jacket back on because of the coldness. Of course for the guys it is not good news but a big disappointment because the girls won’t be sun bathing out there in the park.

Having a nice cheap home-made ice cream and enjoying it while having a stroll in the park or on the way back to hostel during sunny days is quite an indulgence for me after class. Whenever the sun shines brightly, you will see a lot of people standing in queue buying ice-cream, especially children and even adults. Very often you will see some children buying just half a scoop of ice-cream which costs only 50cents.

Ever since my semester started, life is getting more mundane. The excitement of being in foreign country and having the opportunity that others don't is fading. My full concentration I put it on my studies, which is the utmost important thing in my life right now.

Well there was once an acquaintance of mine ask me what is my purpose of life. Well at that moment the only answer that came across my mind is my academic achievement. I told him that even though I know very well what I actually want in life. My purpose of life is never about getting good result or in other words after I finish bachelor I can die ad as my purpose of life is fulfilled. What I really want the most in my life is to be responsible to myself and my present and future family. I never thought about the life after death. For me that's too abstract to think about. The same goes to believing in god. In my opinion, nowadays most of the believers tend to go to god or even think of god only when they are in trouble or when they need help. No doubt that god will always be there for us whenever we need His help and spiritual support. But we should also share our delightful happenings in our life with Him too.

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Photo of the week

Every week I have technical drawing and construction assignments to hand in. They will be evaluated and I need to get passed for all the assignments to get my license. Well it’s not easy to draw since usage of rule is theoretically not allowed. Everything has to be drawn free hand.

Easter Holiday Chapter 1

2009-04-17T12:40:00.000+02:00

It's spring! The coldest winter in 30 years in Germany has finally ended. The sun is shining brightly and the flowers are blooming everywhere. The dull gray gloomy Germany has now become more colourful and lively after winter. Likewise, the people are more friendly. They prefer to be in outdoor than in indoor. People here especially students in my school like to stand under the sun rather than the shades eating ice cream, chatting, smoking, reading books and sun bathing and etc. That's something Malaysian will never ever do.

Last weekend i decided to spend my Easter holiday traveling around with my friends in Strasbourg, France. oh well, all of them are gals, Yeap one torn among roses or you can call gals day out haha i dun care! Some of the guys went to Europa Park near Freiburg and some travel in Switzerland.

For the first time in my life i had the feeling of being a tourist. Even though i had traveled a lot in Germany but those trips were not the same as this because i know that i will be staying in Germany for years. So i have to keep learning and adapt myself in Germany. So I see Germany as my second home and i dun really have the feeling when i traveled in Germany. or may be i was really tired when i first came to Germany so i din really enjoy much.

My trip to Strasbourg ain't that adventurous. We din get lost or encounter any special incidents. The people here were friendly to us. i think that's because we were tourists. living at the border of Germany and France, some of the people here can speak German. so when you wanna buy ice cream or anything else, you can use German or English.

Strasbourg is near the border of France and Germany and it is just 30 minutes train ride from Offenburg to Strasbourg. The ticket (EUROPASS) is 7.50 Euro for a Single Tageskarte meaning you can use the ticket for trains in Strasbourg as well for whole day or 11 Euro for 2 persons Tageskarte. When you are in oversea, never ever convert the currency because you might end up buying nothing or starving. So if you are interested to travel in Strasbourg, my advice is learn some important French words for example Train Station Gare. i have electronic dictionary so it's not a big problem for me. after you arrive at the train station in Strasbourg, go buy a map which costs 1 Euro at the tourist center near the exit Sortie of the train station. the map is available in German, English and French and i think Chinese.. not sure. With the map in your hand, you shouldn't have any problem navigating your way in City Center of Strasbourg. The roads aren't confusing cos like the roads in most of the city centers in Germany, they are built parallel to each other.
Gare de Strasbourg. the architecture of the building is quite astonishing cos i have never expected to see the old train station covered by modern glassy architecture the moment i walked out from the exit of the old train station. From outside it looks quite similar to the Bird Nest in Beijing. I have no idea what is the purpose of covering the old building with glass. to protect it i guess or just to make it look cool..

Cathedral Notre Dame in Strasbourg Cathédrale Notre-Dame-de-Strasbourg,. There is another Notre Dame which is in Paris... Well the cathedral is not hard to find at all since it is the tallest building here. When i first saw this cathedral, i was amazed by the Roman Gothic architecture for its height and also the impeccably crafted statues, windows and gates. The cathedral is so gigantic that standing beside it makes me feel so tiny.

inside the Cathedral. There are people inside most of them were tourists like me and some were busy preparing for the easter mass at the altar.

18 metre astronomical clock which can determine the date of Easter.

Rose Window

Rose Window from outside

The sixth tallest cathedral in the world.

Place de la Cathédrale. A place in front of the cathedral.

La Maison Kammerzell. it was the most beautiful house in Strasbourg.

we sat at the river bank and wave our hand and they did wave back to us.. haha luckily they did.. if not we would have looked like so hai.. oh i dunno how much it costs. cos i dun have the opportunity to have a boat ride along the Rhein river.. i think it must be costly.. so we rather walked..

La Place Gutenberg

In front of the train station.. if you want to lie or sit on the grass.. beware of poop..

Easter Holiday Prologue

2009-04-13T01:28:00.000+02:00

Trip to Strasbourg was like a dream comes true

First time ever, so relaxed and enjoyed i felt
Walking around in city centre of Strasbourg
Visiting Cathedral Notre Dame
Eating hot waffle with blackforest ice cream
Drinking Tequila Sunrise in Cayote
Cycling around in Karlruhe and Offenburg
Being away from homework, frustrations and worries

Every moment in Offenburg and Strasbourg i treasure

Except the snoring that deprived me of a good sleep

updates

2009-04-05T13:15:00.000+02:00

Studieren macht wach! (Study makes you stay awake.)

HANUTA has become my favorite snack!

i have a lot of stuffs to blog about but Schade! i dun have much time cos last week i was indeed busy with homework. especially Technical Drawing. I have to be able to imagine the object and draw the object from different perspectives and also in 3D. So it is utterly time consuming if i really want to draw it nicely. other than that i have darstellende Geometrie (descriptive geometry) as well.

basically i need to draw also and at the same time i need to calculate the angle and the points where the lines cut the specific surfaces. besides that i take mathematics very seriously now cos the way the question asked in Germany is different compared to in Malaysia. Mathematics requires understanding and explanation or conclusion made using the answer.. answer itself is not enough anymore. I spend a lot of time to understand what have been taught and do all the exercise given even though no answer is given. Well doing homework when only the answer is given is not the type of coffee i drink.. cos i think the process of doing the questions is way more important than the answer. Knowing the answer before doing the exercise won't boost the confidence.

change topic!! sorry i have to put everything in one post because i dun have time during weekdays to blog. Well i bought a lot of stuffs since i came to Germany, my money in my account getting lesser and lesser and the worse thing is that JPA committed a big mistake by giving us extra money. so now a lot of people dun have enough money until JPA bank in money which will be end of April or beginning of May. luckily i still have some money left after i bought ticket back home in the coming summer holiday. at least enough to make it through one more month.

oh! i bought new phone O2 XDA Diamond. it is a smart phone. haha.. my first 'canggih' phone man! I paid 25EUR per month for the phone and i can call for free to O2 number and fixed line. i have done some calculation. without the phone i need to pay 15Euro per month. so the phone costs about 10EUR per month for 2 years.. so the phone costs 240EUR. My contact number can be found in my window live messenger...

I officially became the member of a sport club last Friday. and i can use all the facility of the club in Esslingen. The member fee is 40Euro for a year. it's cheap.. now i play badminton every Friday. and it's quite sad when you find yourself not as good as other and sometimes very embarrassing. people dun want to play with me cos i am not good.. i just start to play seriously.. and learn how to play. come to think of it, it's quite fun actually, learn how to play badminton. when i was child, i used to play with my bro but then i dun really know how to hit properly.. without any technique.. so now i learn how to control and play properly and hopefully my skill will improves.

Listener

2009-04-04T23:15:00.000+02:00

well i think i have written this same problem of mine in my previous post. haha... sorry if it bores you..

I have an outlet where I can get answers and advices. It somehow helps me to think and solve the problems that I face in my life. I think everyone needs to have their own outlet. An outlet can be anything-a person or an activity. For me my outlet is a person who I always talk to when I have problems.

When I have problems, I will always go to him and talk to him. Having someone to listen to what I say helps me a lot to calm myself and find solutions on how to tackle or deal with the problems. Loneliness creeps in and tries to take over me when I am emotional and down. During the process of telling makes me feel better and relieved because somebody is listening to me and I know that at least somebody understands how I feel. Whether the answer is the answer I seek, it doesn’t matter. The willingness to listen and understand is good enough.

Well, I dun think telling the problem that i have with others to somebody is some sort of complain or saying bad things behind somebody’s back, if people think I ruin their image by telling somebody else, well I don’t really know what to say and how to answer if people say that to me. May be Sie haben Recht! (They are right! in a way) but that is never my intention. Because most of the time I only tell what happens on me what people say and do and at the end ask what I should do. (I always think it's my problem and blame myself and then i would send long long message to apologize or something like that even though it might not be entirely my fault)

I myself being a listener would be glad that if somebody opens up to me and share problems with me. I would give my advice how to deal with the problems or if I can’t give a good advice, I would just listen.

DST... or Summer Time

2009-03-29T03:14:00.000+02:00

Damm.. i lost one-hour-time cos of day light saving time.
At 2 a.m. the time was adjusted to 3am!
Normally the time will be adjusted forward one hour at the beginning of spring
and adjusted back during autumn.
Why? so that people would have more time and daylight during day

Sarcasm

2009-03-26T16:53:00.001+01:00

I entered the Foreigner Authority office to get the application for my visa.
After filling in the forms, i entered the room to hand in the forms and i din close the door.
After i entered, I din say anything and handed in the form just like that. i thought the woman would have known what i wanted since i had given her the forms and i had been there once to get the form.

Then she said: "Du musst sagen, was du willst." you must say what you want..

shocked but nvm what she said was right, i had to say what i wanted. i was fine with that

then i said: "oh, ich möchte mein Aufenthaltserlaubnis verlängern." oh i would like to extend my visa

Then another woman sitting in front of the previous one said:" hey junger Mann, hast du keine Tur zu Hause? hey young man, do you have door at home?

shocked again for a seconds then

i said: Oh! Tut mir Leid. i am sorry.

then i closed the door.

she said: Danke. Thank you.

i was really shocked for what she said.. finally i have experienced the straightforwardness of the people here, after hearing so much from my lecturers. Straightforwardness which comes with sarcasm. worse! lucky me!

why cant she just say can you pls close the door?

2009-03-24T18:25:00.000+01:00

from now on i will try not to be useful....

too sudden

2009-03-19T20:30:00.000+01:00

Sometimes i hear the foreigners speaking German fluently. I would be dreaming of one day...i could be as good as them.

I wonder how long more i have to wait for my dream to finally come true. Nothing just comes to me as i wait, it requires effort to be put in in the mean time. it takes time and requires no doubt patience to handle things happen in the mean time, but somehow I feel stressed sometimes for i am pushing myself too hard just to fit in.

All of a sudden the last Friday morning, i felt so reluctant to get out of my bed to go to Hochschule. I heard voices telling not to go and stay in my bed, but at the end i went. It is still the first week here in esslingen. I thought it would have been a wonderful and exciting beginning but now i feel rather tired of everything that i am being through right now. So lazy to understand the lecturer, so lazy to talk with others, so lazy to make new friends, so lazy to understand German. so lazy to do anything to immerse myself in the society.

I see more and more responsibilities coming. Responsibilities that i have to carry as a grown up for the sake of my future. their arrival is too sudden that i am not quite prepared for it, not yet. Looking all those pictures from the past uploaded by my friends in Facebook, I really miss those days when i was in secondary school with short spiky hair, blue librarian tie, white long sleeves shirt and green pants and my classmates, especially a friend of mine who has supported me and helped me so much, that i felt so guity for not supporting him when he was suffering. Those days all i needed to do was just to get good grades.

Oh well don freak out cos i am being so emo nowadays due to my emo posts packed with problems lately. i am doing fine. i have strong determination and i have good friends here in Germany to face this together. So dont worry about me. this is just another new stage of my life that i have to live on.

Listening to music helps me to write post. i am listening to the music from the movie Changeling. it was good, really good movie. It made me emotional and touched by strong determination and will to search for her son regardless all the hurdles and troubles that she has to go through just to see her son again. the movie is based on the true story of the Wineville Chicken Coop Murder.

First day in First Sem

2009-03-17T14:26:00.000+01:00

The lecture starts today. well it was not that bad after all. i understood about 50% of what the lecturers have taught today, but then still they speak very fast. luckily they taught with aid of diagrams and power point presentation. otherwise i would have been lost in the middle of no where, figuring out what the hell they are talking about. however so far i have only met two of my lecturers. so it is still way too early to make any conclusion that i could understand quite well.

oh well i TRY to practise what i preach so i was being sociable today. I approached people to get to know them and you know what, i try to think positively but somehow some of them are not that friendly or may be not that they are not friendly but they were simply not interested at knowing more about us or may be Malaysia if they dun have anything to ask about us. My lecturer in Reutlingen once told us that we should not stay together in group because we might scare the German off, but they stay in group and scare me off as well haha... that happens in everywhere man not just Esslingen. looking at the bright side, i met some nice friends as well in class, thay are from Iraq, Serbia and Lebanon. but they have been staying here for many many years and they can be considered as Germans.

that is understandable as sometimes they would have to repeat what they said when they are talking to us. It takes time, for us to improve our German and at the same time for them to know us.

oh if you have any tips you wanna share, please tell me k. i will deeply appreciate your tips.

some updates

2009-03-15T21:03:00.000+01:00

the important things i want to tell in this post
Tomorrow is my big day. My semester starts tomorrow. i am studying automotive engineering in Fachhochschule Esslingen (University of Applied Science Esslingen) Lectures will start on Tuesday. after 2 months of aimless and mundane life i underwent, finally my honeymoon has come to an end. now i have something to be busy with. when i have a hectic life, i long for holiday; when i have long holiday, i long for a busy life. human is like that. always long for smth that we dun have. frankly i learnt nothing much for the past 2 months, i went to class but everything which was taught went in one ear, and our from the other. i hope i would be doing ok in Esslingen.

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the read-if-you-are-free things that i want to tell in this post

hmmm.. am i prepared?
now i am quite nervous actually and at the same time have unnecessary worries in my mind. sigh. why unnecessary? oh well you know me.. unlike my friends here in Germany, i worry before the problems surface. that's me! even though i have undergone many preparatory courses, i am supposed to be fully prepared for the bachelor course already. however, i can tell that at this moment i am not prepared. not 100% but 50% i guess. for sure the first few weeks of lectures i would sit there and try to understand what the lecturers say. it won't be easy to listen, think and understand in German as the Germans talk very fast and some even use dialect. now i am a little bit regretful for choosing to studying in Germany at the first place.

first attempt to be drunk
oh ya! i was drunk before in a farewell party in Reutlingen.. haha. i drank a lot of alcohol to get drunk until i could barely walk straight and lie on the floor as soon as i reached my room. luckily hanafi help me to get back up and on to my bed..
i am not the person that can just let go myself and have fun. come to think about it, i find myself quite similar with people that my friends dislike. do they dislike me as well? haha.. i just want to be myself. but i dun like myself. i prefer the person i am when i am drunk. i would become more courageous and have fun like the others when i am drunk and i do things that i won't do when i am fully conscious. so whenever i want to let go myself to have fun, the only way is to get myself drunk.

something from the past
well now i remember something! when i was in primary school, i was not brave but very shy. i think i am still. but back then i was chosen by teacher to become class representative. with responsibilities on my shoulder, i had to be brave and settle things on my own and approach people. things that i won't dare to to do if i wasn't class rep. then when i was in form five, i was the secretary of St John, i had to face and approach many people to get the application forms signed and deal with principal and penolong kanan. i was indeed very brave to face people and ask people things when i don't know. but then now, i am a coward. i dun even dare to ask people for directions. i have been giving advices to others to be brave to ask and talk to others. but i don't practise what i preach. that's the problem. may be i should get a gf so that i would become brave.. i am braver in front of girls.

About relationship
well today my friend asked whether i got gf ad. haha.. i wish i have.. and she said how come all guys in 5.0 (my former class)are still available (may be not all but most of us). oh well.. haha.. may be we are nerdy and not romantic kot, or may be we think right now study is more important, or we could have been rejected by girls again and again kot. these are just my assumptions. i dunno. if you happen to be one of the guy in 5.0, dun get offended ok.. may be that happened to me you know, speaking from my own experience. one thing for sure is that if i din get JPA scholarship and i study in local uni, i would have been in relationship long time ago. Long distance relationship is hard to maintain.

Bad and expensive haircut
oh well i had my hair cut in one of the barber shop in Esslingen. i paid 20 Euro and i had a lousy haircut. i look so childish and funny now... ishhhhh i hate it..

settled down! Finally

2009-03-10T23:57:00.000+01:00

last few days i was busy with my new room, from shifting my stuff from Reutlingen to cleaning and decorating my room. the chores were tiring. Since i have settled down in Esslingen and finally could unpack my luggage after 2 months of so called hotel life, i wanted to buy so many stuffs to decorate my room and make my life more comfortable and my room livable, so i went to IKEA which is quite far away from Esslingen.. when i was back in Malaysia, i always had a thought that the stuff in IKEA was so damm expensive.. but then in Germany the stuffs in IKEA are relatively cheaper than other shops in Esslingen and Stuttgart and all the place i have been to. i bought plates, cooking utensils, laundry bag and hangers.. i wished i had more hands. i could have bought even more like shelf, comforter cover, bolster and small table. too bad i have only two.. haih... oh well looking at the bright side, my student id can be use as ticket to travel within a certain region which includes Ludwigsberg (IKEA) and also Stuttgart.i ad paid for it together with the semester fee.. i can go IKEA or Stuttgart during weekend if i want to.. there is always a but.. but life in Esslingen will be hectic according to many people.

Fasnetumzug, Rottenberg

2009-02-26T21:07:00.000+01:00

Fastnacht, Fasching or Karneval is a festival before the begin of the fasting season which is six weeks before Easter. every year parades will be held where people who join the parade would dress up like witches or monster. acording to my lecturer, the Fastnacht parade in Baden-Württemberg is very traditional where the masks they were wearing, were passed down from one generation to the other. compared to the celebration in north germany, the parades are more to criticizing politicians and having fun.

the parade that i have been to was held in Rottenberg, not too far from the place i am staying right now, Reutlingen. The entrance fee was 3 Euro and you get a badge as souvenier. from what i have seen during the parade, they collect the badges every year and put them on their costumes.

they carried sweets along and either gave them to the crowds or threw to the crowds.

they like to cam-whore.. whenever they saw cameras they would pose in front of the camera..

the kids were waiting for the parade to start..

the crowd gathered in front of the Rathaus (town hall) and also along the route of the parade. but most of the people will be in front of the Rathaus because they could watch some small performance of each contingent.

be careful of what you wish for.. sometime they would take smth away from you or make fun of you, dirty your face.. they are witches, you remember! they are "bad"

or they pretend to give you sweets then they throw on the floor in front of you..
they are "witches" or smth else, you remember! they are "bad"

Classmates from China

两年前，两年后

2009-02-22T20:52:00.000+01:00

两年前我们相识
两年后我们分开
今天的我们
感情还想铁一般的硬
两年后的今天
感亲还是会那么坚固吗？
还是以往像铁一般的感情
已被空气和水分给侵蚀
空气和水分到处都是
结合起来的力量
胜过铁的抵挡能力

两年的时间
或许太长了
人与人之间的关系
可以在短短的几天时间
因距离和时间而改变

一起的时候
感情随着时间的奔跑
越来越深
分开的时候
同样的
感情随着时间的奔跑
越来越淡
人有悲欢离合
月有阴晴圆缺
人相遇后结交为朋友
人分离后
维持得到的友情
例子没几个
维持得到的友情
也不再像以前那么深

Reutlingen

2009-02-19T22:12:00.000+01:00

"Die Sonne in Deutschland ist wie das Licht aus dem kühlschrank."

it means that the sun in Germany is like the light from the refrigerator. My lecturer told us that in class. and i find it very true cos the sun in Germany shines but the weather is still cold. Ermm.. This week the average temperature is about -5 degree Celsius. it snowed a few days ago and the snow melted and the temperature dropped. the snow that melted and formed puddle of water of the road and floor became ice. the road became very slippery.

that's really cool.. i dunno how did that happen..

the temperature on the hill for today is about -18 degree Celcius. that's is Schwäbische Alb (in English>> the Swabian Mountains). picture taken from the Fachhochschule (the Uni where i am having my pre uni course now)

the sky in Germany is indeed beautiful. The sky is so colourful and very intriguing. Sky as beautiful as this will never be seen in Malaysia because Malaysia is on the equator i guess..

Beautiful sunset. it's really hard to resist myself not to look at the sunset from my class when lecture is giving lecture in the class. Nowadays less and less people came to class.

Freedom. Wings.

Freedom. Now i am on my own and I can do things at will. I think freedom and independence are always side by side and they comes with responsibilities. Responsibility is what I am afraid of.

so far i still survive after leaving Malaysia for 6 weeks and i think finally i have adapted to the weather and the environment in Germany. the money we got from JPA is more that enough to afford a very comfortable life actually. but studying in Germany is tougher compared to other countries because we are doing our bachelor in German. No doubt we will be having a very stressful life in Germany because we have to overcome the language barricade ahead of us. being able to hear what the lecturers say is easy but to understand what they say is difficult. i really hope that i could sail through every exam.

p/s.

1. i keep posting pictures instead of writing.. i hope you guys would still like it cos i am quite lazy to write with my broken English.

2.to my friend who is leaving Malaysia to Australia. all the best for you and i hope you would have a good time there even though you have to study and might be at the same time working part time. the time difference is about 12 hours i think. do keep in touch via messenger and read my blog when you are free.

3. i am going to smack those who say winter so nice and can play with snow..

4. hmm how come no body leaving any comments nowadays.. no one reads my blog ke? haha..

A Must-Visit in Stuttgart

2009-02-12T21:53:00.000+01:00

Went to Mercedes Benz Museum in Stuttgart a few weeks ago. The museum is not only famous for the variety of exhibits in the museum, but also its architecture. The exhibits consist of the replicas of vehicles in the range of the world first motorcar to the present modern cars, engines of cars and also aeroplane, evolution of motorcar, and history of establishment and development of Mercedes Benz and etc.

The price of the entrance ticket is 4 EUR. it's affordable and if you are really into car, i think it is worth to spending 4 EUR. On the other hand, if you dun like cars and hate museum, i suggest you to save the 4 EUR instead cos you would be bored to death. So far i have been to 4 Museums , to me, all of them were interesting and educational especially the Mercedes Benz Museum and 3 hours was not enough for me. however for some of my friends don't find it not so interesting and spending 3 hours in the museum was indeed torturing.

taken on top of the tower at the main train station in Stuttgart... Mercedes Benz!

How to go there? Erm that's a good question. Actually i have no idea. I remember that we took train from the Stuttgart's main train station. arghhh, let me check it out in internet.......
arcoding to the information that i found, take the S-Bahn line S1 train going in the direction of Plochingen / Esslingen and get off the train at the Gottlieb-Daimler Stadium Station. the museum is just around the corner, so just follow the signboard and you ll reach in no time.

Above>> this is not just the first gasoline power vehicle, but also the world first motorcycle.

Daimler four cylinder engine

closer look at the four cylinder engine

in the museum, you can find all kinds of vehicles from the past. race cars, lorries, vans, ambulance and etc.

well..the Brand 'Mercedes' is inspired by the a businessman, Emil Jellinik, whose daughter is called Mercedes.

i was sick that day cos of fever. but i still went to Stuttgart everthough i should't to because i didn't wan to miss the chance to hang out with friends since our time of being together was getting less. I felt so cold eventhough i was in the museum. My body was alarming me that it was time to take medicine but i left it in my bag which was kept in the locker. wtf! luckily my friends accompanied me and distracted me from thinking about the fever by taking pictures and talking.

OMG! Heavy Snowfall

2009-02-12T19:44:00.000+01:00

Once again, Reutlingen is covered by snow. i thought the weather would have been getting warmer and warmer. today it snowed heavily. That was the first time i saw since i came to Germany, it snowed so heavily. the picture above was taken this morning a while after i woke up. the layer of snow on the ground was the thickest i have ever seen. Ka Zeng showed everyone today the Hugo Boss sign at the bottom part of his newly bought Hugo Boss shoes by stamping his shoes onto the snow. Showing off his 70 euro branded shoes.. i stamped my shoes onto the snow also..of course it was not Hugo Boss but NIKE tick.... hahaha.. actually it is quite dangerous to wear sneakers during winter, especially when it snows cos the floor would be very slippery and i could fell down if i don't walk carefully..

This morning it snowed but not as heavy as in the afternoon when i was on the way heading back to my hostel, that i needed to take out my umbrella. Layer of snow was formed on my jeans, bag, jacket and shoes. it was quite fun actually the snow, the cold weather and everything... but only when i am not sick.

Flame-thrower....

then when i was back to my room, the snowfall stopped and gave way to the sun. My day started with heavy snow but ended with a beautiful sunset. I am grateful that now i am healthy and hope that i would stay healthy all the time cos life sucks when i fall sick during winter. I would be as moody as the weather here if i were sick..

München, Bavaria Part 2

2009-02-08T17:07:00.000+01:00

>>>>> continue

after walking around the town centre, we went to the Olympic Park in Munich by train. It's my first time to be in Olympic Park. Just click at the picture to have a look at the locations of the stadium, the tower, the lake and everything in the park...

That's the Olympic tower (in German>> Olympiaturm)! not long ago before i came to Germany i went to KL tower with my mum, so if i were to compare Kl tower with Olympiaturm, yeah for sure KL tower is taller, but then the entrance ticket for KL Tower (i think 35rm kot..)is more expensive than that for Olympiadturm(4.50 euro for adult, if a group of more than 20, 2.80 euro only) but on top of the Olympiaturm, there is a level which is open air and you can feel the wind blow onto your body and for me it feels great and of course very very cold and windy (in winter)

>>>>>>>>>>>>>From the tower

BMW Headquarter (i think)...
if you look carefully, the building actually resembles the 4 cylinder engine. so cool!
and one more thing for your information. Since we all know about BMW but do you know what does BMW stand for?

BMW stands for Bayerische Motoren Werke.

the building at the left bottom corner is BMW Welt (BMW World)

Allianz Arena from the Olympiaturm

Olympic Stadium

BMW Welt

Actually it's not that interesting cos it's not a museum but showroom to sell their cars. But here you can see lots of different series of BMW cars. and no entrance fee.

coming post>>> Mercedes Benz Museum, Stuttgart

Sick (Literally) and Tired

2009-02-07T19:28:00.000+01:00

so tired of traveling.. i have been here in Germany for 4 weeks.. and i have ad been to Munich, Stuttgart, Radolfzell, Konstanz, Friedrichshafen, Reutlingen and tomorrow i am going to Burg Hohenzollern. Arrrghhh.. so exhausted. Every weekend we have excursions, sum of them were sponsored by InWent (which is under BMZ-Bundesministerium für wirschaftliche Zusammenarbeit und Entwicklung in English Federal Ministry of Economic Cooperation and Developement). not only we have been using JPA's money in Germany, but at the same time we have been using money from germans.. haha.. so lucky to be here in Germany! we can have fun for the first few weeks and most of the trips were sponsored. because we were the GUEST of Baden-Württemberg.

Good news. i have secured a place in Fachhochschule Esslingen (University of Applied Science in Esslingen) studying Fahrzeugtechnik (Automotive Engineering). knowing that the future of the automotive industry is not that bright, i am a bit worried and skeptical about it. and rumours said that studying in Esslingen is very stressful. there are some seniors told me that they really respect the people who manage to graduate from FH Esslingen. I dunno how true it is, but since i have got it, i need to face it no matter what lies ahead.

The excitement starts to fade away. i don't feel excited anymore but tired and lazy. when i was back in Malaysia, I longed for the days in Germany. I even dreamt about how enthusiastic i would be in Germany and how interesting it would be traveling around and how great it would be to experience the coldness of winter. The reality turns out to be the other way round after a few weeks here in Germany. When i first saw snow, i was really thrilled and happy like a kampung boy you know, who never see snow and "smoke" from my mouth before.

Happy moments never last long. I find that the life here is not as vibrant as the life back in Malaysia where i grew up, learnt how to walk, learnt how to buy my first Wantan Mee using hokkien and how to cook rice. For the past 20 years of my life i have lived in a place that i was so familiar with. i knew what exactly how the systems work in Malaysia and the thing to do when i faced problems and when i was sick. Now being in a place which is so alienated and having the feeling of not being belonged to the surrounding physically and mentally, i feel a little bit depressed whenever i am alone in the room, when i am sick.

Suddenly, I start to feel bored with my life here. may be it's because i still haven settled down as i haven got my permanent room. i din even bother to unpack my stuffs from the luggage knowing that i will be shifting all my stuffs again.

In Germany, i sleep early and still feel tired when i wake up. I am mentally exhausted as adapting to a new environment requires lot of energy. furthermore, now i need to be independant and to be mature. I have to really take good care of myself now as i am no more the small flower in the green house that requires attention and care, but a flower that is no more in green house and needs to be strong to stay alive amidst the dangerous surroundings and the harsh weather outside.

My friend told me that, in order to be able to let other people to rely on you, first you must be strong and independant enough. it's true and i couldn't agree more.

P/S: i bet you realized my English is deteriorating.. haha.. nowadays my dream is no more in chinese or english, but in german.. haha

coming post: Munich part 2, BMW World, Mercedes Museum in Stuttgart, Zeppelin Museum in Friedrichshafen,

München, Bayern: Part 1

2009-02-03T19:33:00.000+01:00

I went to München (Munich in English) like 2 weeks ago. It is in Bayern (Bavaria in English). München is a very interesting city and there is so many place to visit and walk around in the city center. unfortunately we din have enough time cos the journey from Radolfzell to München is very long and tiring as we had to change trains a lot of times. it was about 4-5 hours ride.

What do see in the picture above?
a man holding a hat? and that's all?

can you see a cathedral?
it's Frauenkirche. very famous in Munich! i went inside and the church is very big with luxurious decorations.

we walked around in city centre of München. all we could do there were just sightseeing, visiting museum and eating. shopping nope.. it is written in Germany's law that all shops have to close on Sunday and public holidays. So we couldn't shop in Munich.

That's Hofbräuhaus. i dunno whether it's famous or not but this place was crowded with people drinking beer and eating german food eg. german sausage and 'pig leg'. the atmosphere in the shop was like the atmosphere of big tents during Octoberfest in Munich. Workers wearing german traditional clothes and typical german traditional music usually played during octoberfest.

my first german beer.. Mr. Brian always said that he missed german beer so much.. and now i can understand why. the german beer is so dam good. i like it so much.. not bitter and it tastes good.. i ordered 0.5 liter bier... because i couldn't finish the one liter one.. 0.5 is like almost 2 cans of beer ad i think.. hehe

Thiemo (German, same age as us, who was in charge of our stay in Radolfzell) told us that if you touch the thing at the bottom of the shield and then come back the next time and touch it again, you will have good luck.... haha..

so i touched it haha. i want luck and i need luck

So far i have seen a lot of lion statues in Germany(Baden Württemberg and Bayern). Lion is for the Germans here very significant as we can see lions in their coat of arms and the logo of some companys here.

there was a strike at the Marienplatz and in front of New Townhall. it's about the Israel's crime should be brought to court in The Hague (City in the Netherlands)

Fraunkirche (direct translation is women' church )

I miss Radolfzell

2009-02-02T21:50:00.000+01:00

I hate winter

2009-02-02T20:53:00.000+01:00

I dunno why Malaysians always long for winter and hate the sun so much. May be it is because of the hot weather in Malaysia. But I can tell you that now I hate winter so much and I hope the sun shines everyday here and I long for the end of winter and the beginning of summer.

离乡背井

2009-02-01T20:49:00.001+01:00

wrote this on the first day on chinese new year

不知不觉
离乡背井的日子
已有两星期长
这里的生活
并没有想象中那么差
但也没有期盼的那么好

今天是大年初一，
这一次的新年
在国外度过
除夕夜晚少了响亮的炮竹声
团圆饭少了美味可口的火锅
初一早上枕头下少了压岁钱
一点新年的气氛也没有

人人都说出国念书
很爽很幸福
但是我并不认同，
出国深造需要付出许多代价
说面对的种种困难和波折
好比在本地念书来得多
我对未来的日子感到担心
不知道我是否能经得起种种考验
不知道我是否能明白教授的讲解
不知道我是否能与德国人沟通
不知道我是否会精神崩溃
无论未来是如何
既然我已选择来德国念书
我都会勇于面对挑战
克服种种的困难
绝不放弃！

Bodensee, Konstanz

2009-01-22T18:29:00.001+01:00

It has been almost 2 weeks since I left Malaysia. I am so fortunate to be here, in Germany to further my studies without spending my parent’s money. Not everyone is as lucky as I am. But I did work hard to get JPA scholarship.

The weather here is really unpredictable. Morning could be a sunny day but then afternoon it could be raining or snowing. Wearing the right attire is crucial not to fall sick, but somehow, I fell sick. Coughs and flu, I always have a visit from them. Finally I understand why the Germans like the sun so much, while on the other hand, Malaysians hate it so much.

Well, I travel a lot since I came here. So far I have been to Konstanz and München (Munich), and I am staying in Radolfzell right now for the first 3 weeks in Germany, attending class and learning about how to live here in Germany. Forms we need to fill in, how to pay our rent, register this and that. All about bureaucracy!

Last weekend I went to Bodensee (Lake Konstanz), in Konstanz.

The Imperia, which is a statue located at the entrance of the Constance harbor, completes one revolution every 3 minutes..

Konstanz is a beautiful city with combination of old and modern architectures and it’s very near Switzerland. I have been there quite often for shopping because Schlussverkauf (End-Season sales). Clothes and shoes are very cheap. bought Sweater and Pullover for just 14 Euro.. such offers can only be found during End-season sales..

German.....

2009-01-17T11:29:00.000+01:00

that's my room i am staying right now. very spacious and the bed is very comfortable.

Euro. yeah i m spending euros now... but onething i dun like is that they have so many coins.. 1 cent, 2 cent, 5 cent, 10 cent, 20 cent, 50 cent, 1 euro, 2 euro and lastly 5 euro. i am still having difficulties differentiating the coins. but then things here are relatively cheap compared to my monthly allowance. (dun ever convert when you wanna buy stuffs, you ll end up buying nothing, cos everything ll be soooooooo expensive) there are some stuffs here which are still cheap if you convert, eg shampoo, lotions, lipbalm..

all the cream and lotions that keep my skin mosturized. as soon as i finish bathing, i need to cream my whole body immediately, otherwise my skin will crack cos the air here is very dry.. ya ya ya i know i am like girl ma.. but then my skin was ad dry when i was in Malaysia. its quite tedious to apply cream whenever my skin is dry...

that's a "Stadtbus". and here in Germany. what matters for the people here is punctuality. the bus here is very efficient and the bus drivers actually do follow the schedule. when the time written on the schedule is 17:06, the bus really reaches the bus stop at 17:06. and of course the train also. so we can actually plan our time very well here. cos you wont be wasting time waiting for bus.

Germany.....

2009-01-13T18:47:00.000+01:00

Sorry for late update.. i am currently in Radolfzell, Germany. it's in south Germany, near Konstanz Lake.. (Bodensee) and of course Switzerland. its very nice place for sightseeing. ll upload the picture sooner or later.. cos i am very lazy to take out my camera with my gloves on.. cannot press anything..

Now in winter everyday i have to follow the so call onion system and put on layers of clothes to keep me warm when i am in outdoor and take off when i am in indoor. i have to always wear shoes and slippers and not to forget, cream my whole body to prevent skin crack. otherwise i ll get sick. other than those tedious stuffs, life here is not that difficult, just that i now have to really take full responsibilty of myself and there are so many decisions that i have to make.

basically since my sem hasn't started, I am now learning how to live in Germany and german cultures and taboos here in CDC(Carl Duinsberg Centrum), Radolfzell. JPA really paid a lot for the course i am having now cos its very costly.

ll update soon when i settle down and got fixed internet access in my hostel..

Deutschland.....................

2009-01-11T18:34:00.000+01:00

now
Freezing cold winter (-12 degree celcius)

Wonderful and comfortable room

cultural shock

Happy hour

The Forgotten Isle

2009-01-02T09:43:00.000+01:00

I went to Pulau Jerejak with my Ausmat friends who came back from Australia. first and foremost allow me to inform you guys some infomation about the island.

Pulau Jerejak, The Forgotten Isle. On the Island there was once a sanatorium for tuberculosis patients, leprosarium for leprous patients (Leprosy>Penyakit Kusta>麻疯病) and later a prison. after the prison was closed, the island was developed to become a tourist attraction site. Eventually Jerejak Resort & Spa was built.

The trip to Pulau Jerejak was worth every penny i spent. Although Pulau Jerejak, compared with other famous islands in Malaysia, is not attrative and lack of any mesmerizing vista and also crystal clear water. but then you can do lot of activities there with lesser money spent.

Jetty to Pulau Jerejak.

the prison is quite remote.

Ruins of the Prison

Toilet

with just rm50, you can do following activities

jungle trekking

Archery ( at first i din wear the protective band on my lower arm and when i released the string? (i dunno what to call that..) piak... hit my arm.. argh the pain was excruciating. but then out of 4 arrows i managed to hit the board 2 times.. very proud le. good enough for a rookie)

Wall Climbing (yeahhhh.. i reached the top!)

Wall climbing also

(Wall climbing is very physically demanding. half way to the top, both my arms were very painful and cramp but at the end i forced myself not to give up and draw out all the energy i had. at certain point i had to fully rely on both my arms to pull me up. it was darn tiring!!! but exciting! hehe..)

and

Flying fox

Buffet 4 Lunch (the food was quite nice)

Queensbay mall

building ship

Penang Bridge

Butterfly Farm, Penang

2008-12-28T17:02:00.000+01:00

Flying soon...

2008-12-27T07:08:00.000+01:00

Freedom.Ballet.Randomness.Beach.William.Excitement.

Ho Ho Ho!!!

2008-12-24T11:42:00.000+01:00

Wish you all
MERRY CHRISTMAS

last Christmas before i embark on another journey in Germany. Malaysia my home sweet home.. feel anxious? nope.. excited? nope.. sad? nope...
frankly i dun feel anything.. or may be not yet..

well, went Queensbay Mall yesterday.. spent about nine hours wandering around and accompanying my friend shopping for winter clothes.
first time spending so much time in Forever 21 waiting for my friend
who brought along 5 dresses and tops into the changing room
phewww.. waiting was really torturing.. a torn among roses..

hv taken some pictures.. attempt to take photos like a pro and turn out to be some not-so-great-but-ok-lo pictures... so enjoy my pictures...

giant doraemon!!!

oh haha the only thing that doraeron did was jumping and swinging his hands up and down like spring.. toin..toin..toin.. haha.. cos the costume was heavy especially the head haha... jump then pose then jump again.. hahaha

dunno who are they.. hehe

fund raiser for disabled... i donated some too..

try to play with light using my new camera..

sox...swaks..socks...

又老一岁了

2008-12-21T08:21:00.000+01:00

冬至快乐。。。

祝大家：

发福发到像汤圆一样圆。。（除了我）

可以时常与家人团圆

家人是很重要的哦！
要珍惜与他们在一起的每一寸光阴哦！

真希望有个人还记得他在这里还有他的家。

耀铭上

nostalgia

2008-12-19T08:42:00.000+01:00

Sekolah Menengah Jenis Kebangsaan Sin Min, Sungai Petani, Kedah

first and foremost, i would like to apologize to my fellow readers for not updating my blog for a week. yesterday i went back to my secondary school to get my form signed by principal. however, he was on leave so I couldn't get his signature. Since i was in school, so i decided to take a stroll in school. when i walked to a board where drawings were exhibited on the board. i glanced over the drawings and suddenly my eyes were locked on one particular piece.

no name was written on the drawing. it looked so familiar to me, like the one i have drawn myself. then i decided to find out to whom it belonged to. and written at the back was 'William Teow'. Waoooo.. it has been 3 years since i left and my drawing was still exhibited. it never occured to me that my drawing was ever exhibited, i was quite sure that it was there the last day i was in school.

i was on cloud nine to see my drawing on the board. (yeah i know i know it's not really a very good drawing....). it somehow reminded me of the fun and reminiscence with a brush in my hand. i like drawing but i decided to give it up as taking 13 subjects was a heavy burden. way too heavy for an actively involve in co-curricular activities student like me.

so now i dun quite know how to draw anymore..hehe... i m not talented but i worked very hard to learn how to draw...

really feel proud about this

Flora Fest, Botanical Garden Penang

2008-12-05T14:21:00.000+01:00