Tuesday, 31 August 2010

MIA

been working on my Flickr account recently. Eversince i came back from the trip, i have been working at asian restaurant and editting 1000++ pictures that i had taken during the Balkan trip. and up until now i could say i finished editting 60% of the pictures. Well i have been uploading some of my pictures on Flickr. I recently bought a pro Flickr account so that i have unlimited photo uploads.

Last weekend i worked as a photographer at a party and i met a guy who is working at Bosch. He told me something which really struck me, like i was shot at point blank range. He told be hobby is hobby and instead of spending too much time on doing the stuffs that i like, i should concentrate more on my future, how to get good result, get a good job and so on. I have been thinking about what he told me intensively. what he said might be true but the question should be like this, how my life would be without doing something that i like to keep me going and stay on the track?

If you are interested to have a look at my pictures, visit my Flickr Photostream. (Click here) because i have too many pictures and i doubt that i will post all in my blog. but of course i will write something about my trip. I bought a notebook and wrote down my experience in it throughout the journey. i am looking forward to tell readers of my blog about my trip.

Friday, 20 August 2010

夜深感言

曾经有人跟我说,一个人不可能在短时间改变。
我照一照镜子,我发现我变了很多。
在外国生活了一年半,
我很努力的去适应新环境,融入这新社会,
不停地在新生活圈子里寻找我可以站稳的岗位。
岁月不待人,时间一分一秒地流去,
半年过去了,很快地一年过去了,
我还是跟以前一样,毫无改变。
我觉得生活毫无乐趣,反而觉得有点痛苦。
一年半过去了,我开始剥开过去,真正地去参与这里的新生活。
我现在的生活,开始有了点起色。
我开始工作,游玩和做一些让我的生活变得跟充实的事情。
而不是每天呆在电脑前。
我的新生活终于开始了。

寻找自己的过程中,
我尝试以爱情充实自己,把感情和心灵寄托在另一个人的身上。
但是我还是觉得生活有点空虚。
因此我伤害了两个女人,我对不起她们。
我承认我自私,我承认我当初做了很多错误,辜负了她们对我所付出的一切。
我清楚地知道我所做的一切不能就以一句对不起就可以弥补我的过错。
对不起这三个字微不足道。
但是除了说声对不起,我又可以做什么呢?
很少人会明白我的感受,体会过我的生活的人才会明白。
你可能觉得我觉得我自己的想法永远是对的,
换句话说我觉得我永远都是宇宙的中心点。
每个人都不是应该做我们觉得对的事情吗?
这样我们才会犯下错误,
做错事才会让人成长,不是吗?