Sunday, 28 June 2009

:D random update

Studied together with Yi En in his room and it turned out to be not so fruitful. took picture of his BMW using his camera instead.. Monday KONSTRUKTION test!! wish me good luck man!! i need it.. a lot... to pass.

Tuesday, 23 June 2009

怀念从前的我

我呀!
不知道为什么
我一直都走在两个人的背影
以前中学时期是这样
现在也是这样
跟他俩走在一起
总觉得自己像个外人
跟过路人没什么两样
要问路的时候
他们就走过来向我打个招呼
问我该怎么走。
有时候我觉得我与他俩之间
隔着一道很高很高的墙
很想很想跃过那道墙
跟他俩混在一起
有说有笑地走在一块
但是日子久了
便觉得那道墙越来越高
而我再也无法征服那道墙
我只能坐在墙的另一边
聆听他们嘻嘻哈哈和笑声

突然间
我很想念五零班的同学。
以前从沙亚南回到双溪大年
跟他们聚集在一起的时候
我觉得我好像复活起来的木乃伊
最喜欢的就是将人家的是非。 哈哈!
讲谁和谁走在一起;谁和谁分手了;
或者是讲些以前发生的有趣事件。

我们在一起有说有笑地。。

觉得好像回到属于我的世界。

所以凡是有五零班聚会,我决不缺席
但是每次都是只有几只小猫出席而已!

突然想起。。。。
以前我们班上四十四个人,
四十三个人可以在班上讲不在场的那一个人的坏话!
有时候还可以笑翻天!

哈哈哈哈!

Monday, 22 June 2009

Quick update!


Presenting my workspace! a place where i do mostly everything.. having meal, doing homework, playing games, surfing internet...



my room very messy.. carpet damn dirty.. exam !-sigh-


连heater也不放过!


beside my bed also got notes... -shakehead-


inside the box is my camera> canon 980IS.. gonna say bye bye to my camera ad.. it will be on the way to japan tomorrow.. i surely ll miss it perhaps for couple of months until i got my new camera.. a dslr. oh well planing just to buy a entry level camera instead of mid end camera like nikon D90.. cos i am still a student.. like what my mum always said. 不会赚钱,就只懂得花钱。。 still don't know how to earn money, only know how to spend money (sorry bad translation.. ). now due to economic crisis, my parents' salary is just enough for them to spend on loan payment and groceries only. if i were still in secondary school, i might have to stop attending tuition class cos my total monthly tuition fee is about RM 250. come to think of it. without JPA scholarship, my life would be the other way round compared to my life now. Hmmm.. I ll get a better camera in the future with my own money...

Saturday, 13 June 2009

Regrets

It has been almost 21 years
since i came to this world.

Life has not been too difficult for me;
modest but mundane.
There are so many thing i have achieved;
and at the same time
there are things that i have yet to achieve.

Sometimes
when i look at my friends, doing what they do best
i really feel envious of what they are capable of.
then i would asks myself,
what i do best;
i could hardly find one
For most of the people
it’s never a difficult question to answer
playing music instrument
playing football,
playing badminton
Singing
drawing
playing games
telling jokes and so on

I click the rewind button
to have a look of what i have done in my past
I could easily tell what i have achieved academically
how many As in exam
how many prizes i have got from competitions

Looking at people' life,
and comparing theirs to mine
i really hope
i can have the life they have been having

i press the rewind button
again and again
just to find something which is not about studies.
but to no avail, all i can find is about grades and trophies.

Because of the old fashion mindset of mine,
i have given up so many great things
that i used to be capable of doing
like drawing...

for my SPM
for my tuition classes
and for power and high post in Stjohn
i gave up drawing

i remember vividly
there was once my art teacher (in art studio) showed my drawing to seniors
and said: "see, a form one student can draw like this"
i was very proud of myself at that moment

what i have now....

apa pun tak ada...

i blame nobody
but myself
cos i am the one
who let it slip away from my grip

result slip is nothing but just a paper now
trophies is nothing but like a vase
after a while they would be forgotten and not important anymore

But skills and talent are things that you can bring
no matter where you go and no matter where you are

Sunday, 7 June 2009

Pfingsten Holiday: Porto


三年前的我,
一个从来都没踏出马来西亚的井底蛙,
从没想过三年后的今天,
可以看到比井里所看到更广阔的天空。

3 years ago,
being a person who never ever set my foot outside of Malaysia,
never thought that 3 years later i would have the chance to travel in oversea.

一个每天都把学业和课外活动摆在第一位的青少年,希望可以像哥哥一样拿到奖学金出国念书。为了奖学金, 我努力奋斗了好几年, 终于获得了一直所追求的机会。 得到奖学金的那一刻,我知道我的未来从此就会改变。奖学金减轻家庭负担,父母亲可以松一口气,不必再为学费而拼命节俭;而我自己不再为零用钱而烦脑。有了钱,我可以办到我以往一直想做的事情,也可以买到我喜欢的东西。我以为我会很快乐很幸福,但是我以点也不觉得快乐。

现在的我不再是井底蛙,而是一只鸟,自由自在的飞翔。